Letters To Louis // l.t.

April 15th, 2010 - letter 17

Dear Louis, 

Where do I even began? Let's start with the song shall we? That piece of paper I pasted to this page are the lyrics to the song you wrote for me.

You wrote it for me. I don't think I've ever been happier. And the note at the end! I died, okay? I died.

"To: My Belle

From: Your Superman

[Verse 1] 

My hands, your hands 

Tight up like two ships drifting 

Weightless, waves try to break it 

I do anything to save it 

Why is it so hard to save it? 

My heart, your heart 

Sit tight like bookends 

Pages between us 

Written with no end 

So many words we're not saying 

Don't wanna wait till it's gone 

You make me strong 

[Chorus] 

I'm sorry if I say, "I need you" 

But I don't care, I'm not scared of love 

'Cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker 

Is that so wrong? 

Is it so wrong? That you make me strong 

[Verse 2] 

Think of how much love that's been wasted 

People always try to escape it 

Move on to stop their heart breaking 

But there's nothing I'm running from 

You make me strong 

[Chorus] 

I'm sorry if I say, "I need you" 

But I don't care, I'm not scared of love 

'Cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker 

Is that so wrong? 

Is it so wrong? 

[Bridge] 

So baby hold on to my heart 

Need you to keep me from falling apart 

I'll always hold on 

'Cause you make me strong 

I'm sorry if I say, "I need you" 

But I don't care, I'm not scared of love 

'Cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker 

Is that so wrong? 

Is it so wrong? 

[Chorus] 

I'm sorry if I say, "I need you" 

But I don't care, I'm not scared of love 

'Cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker 

Is that so wrong? 

Is it so wrong? 

That you make me strong 

I'm sorry if I say, "I need you" 

But I don't care, I'm not scared of love 

'Cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker 

Is that so wrong? 

Is it so wrong? 

That you make me strong

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there's the song. I wrote it for you, Belley-Boo. 

I really hope you like it. That's my first song. I hope it wasn't too horrid.

Hey, maybe someday I'll use it for my album when I get famous?

Well... you make me strong, Annabelle. I.... I.... never mind. 

-Louis"

You even sang the song to me. It was beautiful. The song and your voice.  When I got home I reread the lyrics and fell even more in love with it. 

You sure do have a talent, Lou.

The song got me a bit sad though. Okay, no, it did get me sad. The song was beautiful and so were the lyrics and it was so meaningful, but it just got me thinking; if you ever did by chance love me one day, why would you? Why? Why would you love me? I'm nothing special. I'm a fat girl whose face is so awful it makes people laugh when they see it. I'm a girl with too many problems to name. I'm a girl who is broken beyond repair and doesn't even love herself.

Why, Louis? Why?

I don't understand and I fear you might be falling in love with me. I don't want you to. I might hurt you or you might hurt me.

Why?

Oh no. No, no, no, no, no, I'm getting attached to you. I'm getting attached to you and building a world around you and you're going to leave me and forget me. No, no, no, no, no, no. No. 

I love you, Lou, and I'm going to lose you.

I love you.

Please don't leave.

-Your Belle.

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I love you too, My Belle.

I love you, I knew it the minute I met you. I'm sorry it took so long for me to catch up, I just got stuck.

I won't ever leave, I promise.

-Lou

p.s. don't leave your journal or whatever this thing is laying around. I might just pick it up.

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AN: ok ok comment and vote my lovies.

i know the gif is of j.law saying the quote but i dont care.

p.s. thank you, Misharoo for your comment on the cover. <3 you're amazing and my friendddd. if you're smart then you'd follow her. her stories are amazing and i can't funtion when i read them and omg she is perf and amazing.

-A x