Letters To Louis // l.t.

March 19th, 2010 - letter 11

Dear Annabelle,

I, uh, well- I don't... huh. 

Oh! This is Louis by the way. I didn't read anything that was in this book, I promise! I just see you carrying this book around with you wherever you go so I thought this would be the best way to say sorry since you keep avoiding me. 

I would avoid me too so I'd blame you. I am truly sorry Annabelle for how I acted. I really am. 

Now you might be wondering how I got your book, well you didn't shut your locker all the way since you were in such a hurry to get to class. I "had to use the loo" and on my way I saw your locker open. I was going to leave you a note, but then I saw this book and recognized it as the book you always carry around so I thought "hey! why not leave a little letter in here for you!".

Annabelle, I'm sorry. I was an arse to you and I feel horrid about it. You have a beautiful voice and the song... wow the song was just... I can't even form words to describe it's beauty. You did a wonderful job, singing wise and song writing wise. You were amazing, I swear. I'm sorry I laughed, I don't know why I did. Well I do, it was out of disbelief. 

I- I would elaborate on why I laughed out of disbelief, but I'm pretty sure you'd laugh in my face. 

The point is: I'm sorry, Belle. I really am.

I am so dreadfully sorry. Please, please, please forgive me.

Since I'm already writing I might as well say a few other things.

First: I know I ignore you, but I just don't know how to act in front of you when we're around other people. It's not that I'm embarrassed of you or that I don't like you as a friend, no, it's just I'm nervous enough around you without people around so to add people to the mix... well that would be pure and utter chaos for me.

Second: I see all those girls (and boys) bullying you every day. I see them treat you as if you were trash, I hear them call you horrid names and say how fat you are (even though you aren't) and say how ugly you are (even though you aren't). I-I don't know why I don't stand up for you, I'm a complete idiot, but when my "friends" bully you I talk to them afterwords. I swear I do. I'm trying to help you, love. I promise I am. I'm trying to stand up for you. Maybe one day I'll be brave enough to face your bullies head on. I'm sorry.

Third: Now... well this may be far fetched, but I know that people who get bullied sometimes hurt themselves. Sometimes they become anorexic, sometimes they cut or burn themselves, sometimes they become bulimic, sometimes they do other things. Sometimes they consider... well suicide. The point is that if you ever need anyone to talk to then I'm here. I promise I am. I'm here for you, Annabelle. 

No matter what anyone says you're worth my time and me. I promise.

You are my friend, sunshine. I hope I am yours.

-Louis

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oh.my.gosh. wut was that?

so I was thinking of double updating for @_eccentric_ and then @KarolaTro said I gotta update SO here we are. I updated for my two homegirls who are amazing. 

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-A x