Love on London

Chapter 30: WebChat

__-Arria’s POV-___

“I need to tell her I’m sorry, I need to tell her that I never meant any harm, that all I wanted was her. All I ever wanted was to hold her, and keep her close, to Love her. I need to tell her that I love her.”

I nodded before turning and walking a few steps into the dark hallway before almost collapsing. ‘I need to tell her that I love her.’ Why did this have to complicate my already complicated thoughts? Words that could kill, three words said a lot. Just three words, simply, I love you. I felt it in return, that’s why I found it hard to forgive and forget.

“Arria,” his hand went to my shoulder. I wanted to melt away into his touch.

“I saw you Jay,” I say in return. Another hand went to the other shoulder.

“She was crazy Arria, I never felt anything for her,” he said and I turned to face him.

“So you didn’t even feel disgusted when she kissed you!” I say angrily, my pride stopping me from falling into his arms in forgiveness.

“I felt it when she kissed me; I also didn’t react because I knew that the only lips that should touch mine were yours. I love you Aria,” he said looking me straight in the eyes, the words flowing from his mouth like something from a movie.

“Nathan kissed me,” I say after staring into his eyes for a long moment. I saw him flinch like an arrow struck him in the chest, “You didn’t tell him.”

“You didn’t come back.”

“I’d come home and my house was upturned,” I reply quick as his quick.

“You should have called me straight away,” he said touching my face. I could see where it was going to go. I’d say something like, ‘Well I didn’t want this fuss over it.’ He’d reply with something like, ‘But it’s already happened.’ And then he’d feel bad because I would start a new cascade of tears. Bingo.

I nodded and dared my eyes to look up at him. Big pools from a sad ocean, it hurt me that he was hurting. Jayne called somewhere from the front door, I could barely hear it.

“Arria please, please, please forgive me. I promise I’ll never hurt you again,” he said moving a hand to glide lightly down from my ear and over my jaw. It sent shudders down my spine and goose bumps up my arms. “We’re going to L.A. to do a music video, I want you to come with me,” he continued when I fell silent.

“You forgot to say please,” I say letting a smile spray over my lips and gave him a light nudge.

“Please,” he said half smiling half unsure if he should.

“Of cause,” I say grinning. He really smiled then, a priceless lopsided smile that reached out and pulled me closer to him. I pressed my head into his chest and closed my eyes, breathing in his scent. “When do we leave?” I ask looking up with a little trouble because he was holding me so tightly.

“Next week,” he said.

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Jayne said it was necessary to clean up all the questions from the fans and finish all the rumours. Jay and I told her we were dating, but we didn’t want to make it public. She nodded though she didn’t really advise we keep it up for long. So everyone got to their Twitter and Facebook accounts and said we’d be having a U-Stream live feed going in an hour to answer all questions and doubts. It hit like wildfire because moments later it was trending and even the gossip T.V. show mentioned it.

“With your fans and our fans we could take over the world,” Tom joked to ease the tension. I forced a laugh and felt better for it.

“Okay guys are you ready?” Jayne said fiddling with the computer for a moment longer. Jay took hold of my hand and squeezed it tightly for a moment before letting it drop.