Love on London

Chapter 50: The Ledge

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It all started what seemed like minutes ago, at the least days ago, but in reality it was three years. Three years. That’s how long it lasted. From nothing it rose like a phoenix from flames only to crumble into ash and about to fall off one of the sky scrapers in New York. She stood with trembling legs on the edge of the building; no one would know who she was in a few weeks. If it took that long to be noticed, then surely it wouldn’t be much longer for everyone to forget. But her heart yearned for someone, something, a memory kept stinging her until it was screaming at the back of her teary eyes. When she first met them, when she first met him. The way his eyes fell onto hers like they were magic, it still gave her shivers.

“I could take it all back… I could try to for…” she whispered, but the wind caught her words and sent them spiralling down the dark building to the concrete path bellow. A yellow taxi honked its horn to the passing car and a tired person trudged along the dark streets.

“I could?” she whispered again, but her pride stopped her. It always had, and now here she stood searching for something, enlightenment, a word or hope, something that would make her pride fall and her soar. She closed her eyes and went back to that first day.

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She felt the tears swell in her eyes as the memories hit her likes the stones the children use to throw at her. Her foot glazed over the edge as if to test the air.

“Now I remember everything,” she whispered to herself and felt the rush of life leap in her throat. She wondered if her child would have had that feeling, if her best friend might have… did they even get a chance to feel that before death captured them both and took them away into the depths of afterlife?

“Felicity!” Shia shouted from behind her sounding cautious. Everyone watched nervously as she stood on the edge. The camera men left their cameras though the film kept rolling. It seemed so surreal, like this is where it would end.

She shook her head in defeat. “I thought I could live without him, but now I can’t go back and I can’t go on,” she sobbed to herself. Her eyes went up to the dark abyss of the night and wondered if he’d be watching… if he would feel her pain while she fell. ‘Like an ocean his eyes were magic, but now a storm has arisen and washed it all away.’If it took that long to be noticed surely it would take that long to forget.

She stepped off and the hum of voices hit her ears but only one voice she heard was Jay’s singing,

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

'Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight…

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