Love on London

Chapter 17: Never Nero's

“It means I won’t to get to know you better,” he whisper lifting his hand with mine and brought it into both his hands, “It means I want to know you better than a friend,” he whispered. I felt my heart race at an uncontrollable beat now and then it plummeted when I looked at his eyes.

“There’s a but,” I whisper and swallowed. He licked his lips and let out a sigh,

“Nath likes you as well.”

I’d waited, dreaming of his lips on mine and his arms around me, but I never found it in me to ask four simple words. “Does he still care?” I whisper to myself before walking into the club. I had pulled on a jumper to block the cold and hide my face. I walked into the club that was blearing the start of a Glitch Mob song and I almost felt my heart drop. Maybe They still have to play? I tell myself and shoved my way to the bar. A guy put down his drink and let his hand fall on my shoulder,

“You should really take that jacket off love,” he said with a slight slur. He had short spikey brown hair and murky brown eyes that hid behind dark bags.

“Have The Wanted already played?” I say to him.

“Sorry!” he said loudly leaning in and motioning for me to speak up.

“Have The Wanted played!” I shout loudly at him.

“The boy band?” he asked leaning back and taking another large sip of the drink he had, I sighed,

“Yeah them,” I replied. He frowned and leant forward. “YES THEM!” I shout back at him. Someone bumped into me and she apologized with a second glance before dancing again.

“Yeah, gone sweetie, but I’m still here,” he said opening his arms and winking at me. I smiled weakly at him and my heart plummeted because I’d have to wait until I talked to Jay. I didn’t want to wait; I hadn’t seen him since after the snow because we’d both been too busy. For two months we’d been too busy! The man burped loudly, but still kept his composure. I shook my head and pushed my way back out to the door,

“By the looks you’ll be there for a long time,” I whisper, the words caught in the deep drop and rise. Eventually I made my way out of the mass of bodies jumping up and down like cooking popcorn. I had an urge to throw up and then the wind hit me like a wall, though it had warmed since the snow but it was still cold.

 I let the hood fall off my head and I pushed my hands further into the pockets and tried to find my phone. “Bloody hell,” I say under my breath when I realised I’d left it in the car. A car passed, but other than that the street seemed silent. Like my heart, I had never felt the need to be with someone. Maybe once or twice when I was a teen, but it changed when I got to 18 and here I was a 20 year old, Nearly 21, I tell myself.

I stomped up and down before realising that I should probably try finding where he parked. I decided to turn right and keep going down where he would have driven. Maybe it was a good thing I didn’t see them tonight, what would I say. ‘Oh yeah, hi guys! I’ve missed you and decided to stalk you on the radio, oh and by the way Nath do you still like me because I want to date Jay, but I don’t want to hurt you? Saying it like that made me feel bad because I really liked Nathan. I would date him, I would love him, but I couldn’t while every time I looked at Jay made me feel like an eternity of sandy beaches and snowy mountains. I didn’t want to hurt anyone because I liked them all too much for that. Working with them on making a funny home video brought back memories as a kid, their fans loved it as well, and some even made spoofs and branches off it.  

“Arry?” said a voice through my thoughts, God I missed his voice, I think and kept walking, I’ve missed it so much I’m imagining it. “Arry!” said the voice again and a hand made me turn around. I almost dropped dead when I saw who it was.