Ash's Dark Past *DISCONTINUED*

Recovery (Ash's PoV)

"Hi, Serena." I said weakly. I felt absolutely horrible. My head was spinning and I was insanely hot. The ringing in my ears and my vision was fuzzy. But, I could make out who was where and who was who. I gazed around to see Serena on my chest, Bonnie and Clemont in the corner, and Kyle and Onikage in the do- wait what?! When did they get here?! I rubbed my eye to make sure I wasn't just seeing things, but they were really there. Onikage and Kyle were human.
"Surprised much?" Kyle said with a sense of joy and sadness in his playful tone.
"Yeah... k-kinda." I say. My voice was in a whisper from me being so weak. Man, it hurts so much. And when I mean it, I mean pretty much my whole body; my wrists and ankle and head were wrapped in bandages, and everything was spinning. I started to fall back but I put my arm behind me to support my weight.
"Take it easy, Ash. You're in no condition to be moving around." Serena says sweetly. I nod my head slightly in agreement, and I normally don't care too much about my own health, but I knew Serena would kill me if I didn't listen. I lay my head back on the pillow and stare at the ceiling. I was quiet for a good while when my friends were asking how I was feeling, what it felt like, blah blah blah. I didn't really pay any attention to any of them. I had something on my mind; and I was nervous. What if I told Bonnie and Clemont about Silver when I was possessed? After all, they were looking at me hesitantly, like they knew something. Suddenly, Clemont asked everyone but Bonnie to leave. Everyone was hesitant at first, but then they left.
"Ash... we need to talk." Clemont and Bonnie said in unison. They knew. I could see it by the look in they're eyes.
"Yeah, sure. What's up?" I ask, pretending to be oblivious. Clemont and Bonnie glanced at each other, and. Bonnie sighed.
"We know about Silver, and your scar. We both had... a dream about it." I left their eyes and stared at the floor.
"...How long?" I asked.
"About two days." Clemont said. Bonnie placed her hand on my leg, I could tell it was her's because Clemont's hand was bigger (I know that from the slap the other day).
"Ash, why wouldn't you tell us?" He questions. I felt a single tear roll down my cheek and fall onto the pillow, making a soft thud.
"Ash...?" Bonnie asked.
"Come on, Bonnie. Let's let him be. He's gone through a lo-" I pretend to pass out again, but really, I just wanted to sleep. There was too much floating in my head right now, and I could just tell that my face looked pained.
"Ash!" Clemont yelled. I heard more footsteps come from outside into the room.
"What happened?" Serena asked.
"We were just about to head back to you guys when he just passed out out of the blue." I felt a soft hand on my head, and thankfully it didn't hit the spot on my head that felt like it was being cracked open. The touch was gentle; Serena's.
"His fever isn't going down a lot. We should get Nurse Joy and ask for some medicine or something." She said. Then randomly, all of the noises around me started fading away, replaced by a loud ringing noise. I finally slipped away into unconsciousness, and in my dream, I saw Lysandre and my mom kissing and saying they loved each other, and then Silver hurting Serena, turning to me after a few seconds, a knife in his hand, and stabbed me in the heart as I gasped and woke up. That felt like I'd only been unconscious for a few seconds, but when I glanced around and saw the clock, 6 minutes had gone by since before I passed out. I sat up groggily and rubbed my forehead, even though I was only rubbing the bandages.
"Ash, are you alright?" Serena asked. I didn't respond. My throat hurt too much to say a word. It felt like it was closing, but I could still breathe, and my eyes were closing on their own. I managed, though.
"Ash?" Onikage asked. I never met any of their eyes because I felt my checks stained with tears. There weren't any on my cheeks, but the wet trial of them remained. I placed my forehead in my hands and rubbed it. My head was spinning even more than it was before, so nothing was clear. I could just hear the voices of my friends over the a very loud, booming voice laughing hysterically in my ears.
"YOU NOW HAVE TO PAY!!!!!!" Silver's voice yelled, sending chills down my whole body. I felt my arms shaking and I whispered, "n-no.... st-stay a w-way..." my eyes were wide with fear. Silver was coming. And he was going to hurt me really, really bad!
I felt someone's hand on my shoulders shaking me slightly, but I thought it was Silver, so I yelled, "STAY AWAY!" And plunged my face into my hands.
"... Ash?" Serena's voice said fearfully. I didn't raise my head, because I didn't want them to see the tears running down my face. I didn't want to keep living in fear. I don't want anyone to be hurt because of me being alive...
I wanted to die.
My shoulders shook slightly and an arm wrapped its way around it. I opened my eyes slightly and saw a long red jacket and a pastel pink dress. It was Serena. I didn't want the tears to keep coming, but they wouldn't stop.
"Are you ok?" She whispered in my ear. I nod and hug her, closing my eyes tight as more tears flowed. I felt a hand on my back, but I didn't look to see who it was this time. I didn't want to leave Serena's hug. It felt... warm, while everything else felt freezing. I pulled back, but didn't open my eyes. She lifted my chin slightly.
"Are you sure?" She asked quietly.
"Yeah..." I croaked. I turned my head away so she couldn't get a good look at the tears. I slowly opened my eyes to see a pair of grey jeans. I rub my hands against my face and eyes before I look up and see Onikage's shadowed face looking down at mine. He gave me a look that looked like, 'are you ok?' And 'I know something's wrong.' I shook my head and said, "guy's, I'm fine, okay? I'm just a little dazed, I guess..." I said, raising my hands. They all looked at me, and I knew they knew something was up. I never met Bonnie and Clemont's eyes, though. I knew that they knew why I was acting like this. They started asking me more questions like if I was okay and other things like that, then Nurse Joy came in with some medicine. I refused it, but then Serena glowered at me, and I reluctantly took the pill. I swallowed it down without a problem. It tasted horrible,, but thankfully the water washed away most of the taste. I fell back onto the pillow and eventually I asked everyone to leave me alone for a minute, and they listened, but Serena wouldn't leave.
"Serena, I asked you to leave, please." I told her. She wasn't budging.
"I want to know what's up, Ash. What did Bonnie and Clemont say to you?" She asked persistently. I turned my head.
"Why would it matter to you? You hate me." I'd just gotten a wave of memory from when Onikage was in control, and Serena was yelling at me, tears running down her cheeks, and saying she hated me. Her eyes were filled with shock and remorse.
"Ash... I only said that because I thought the feeling would pull you out of Onikage's possession." I looked at her. Her eyes welled with tears. I guess I had said it to her in a kinda mean way.
"*sigh* sorry. There's just a lot on my mind." I state sadly. She looked at me again.
"It's fine. But can you tell me what's wrong?"
"No..."
"Why not?"
"It's not important."
"It's obviously important if you're acting so sad. Please tell me." I shake my head and place my forehead into my hand. It still feels really hot, but then again, everything felt really cold, so I really have lost sense of which is right or wrong. She looked at me, and then she left the room. I waited until I knew she was gone to grab the earbuds and phone that were next to me and pulled up a song that I'd heard a very long while ago, back when Silver would abuse me. I went online and looked up a song that perfectly matched my thoughts; her last words by Courtney Parker. I'd heard it on the radio once when me and my mom were driving home on a rainy day after she and Silver for divorced and he went to jail. I'd looked it up later and ever since, whenever I'm feeling depressed or something, I hum the tune to myself or listen to the song. I only do it when I'm alone, though. It feel's weird how many adventures I've had in the past year, thinking back to a few weeks ago, on that day when Serena found out about Silver. I placed my hands on my stomach and stared at the ceiling as I singing the words softly under my breath, so no one could hear me. I also changed the lyrics a bit so it would be for a boy instead of a girl.
"Just an average boy, he always wore a smile, he was cheerful and happy for a little while.
Now he's older, things are getting colder. Life's not what he thought, he wished somebody had told him. He told you he was done, you let it slip by.
So from then on he kept it on the inside. He told himself he was alright, but he was telling white lies.
Can't you tell? Look at his dull eyes. Tried to stop himself from crying almost every night.
But he knew there was no chance of feeling all right.
Summer came by, all he wore was long sleeves, 'Cause those cuts on his wrists were bleeding through you see.
He knew he was depressed, he didn't want to admit it..." I stopped singing and listened to the words. There was something I had to know. I called my mom's house number and waited as the number rang.
"Hello?" She said through the other line.
"Hey, mom. It's me, Ash." I said weakly. My voice still hurt a lot, and singing wasn't the best idea now that I think about it.
"Oh, Ash! I was worried about you. You never call." I knew what she was talking about and I felt guilty because it was true.
"Yeah sorry about that. Uh, hey, mom? Can I ask you about something?"
"Of course, Ash. What is it?" I hesitated.
"... do you... know Lysandre?" She was silent. Did I push it?
"... Yes. Yes I do." She finally responded. She then explained to me about her and Lysandre, but I knew it wasn't all that.
"Did you ever... date?" I asked.
"Well... more than that..." I knew what she meant but I tried to sound as confused as possible.
"What do you mean?"
"We... we were married." I was shocked. Well, mostly, at least.
"B-but I thought dad-"
"Ash, I wasn't telling you the whole truth. Your father, or who you thought your father was... he was your uncle. Your father had to leave and asked him to fill in as your father-figure, knowing that you'd hate him once you found out." I felt the tears come.
"Ash...?" She asked sweetly.
"I... g-gotta g-go..." I stuttered.
"Ash wa-" it was too late. I'd already hung up before she could finish. I cried softly into my hand. How could she lied to me for my whole life? Why? I trusted her more than anyone for my whole life! I finally made up my mind; Trust no one, and you don't get hurt. I reset the song as I thought. Depression. That was the word I'd use to describe how I felt. I guess I didn't understand it when I was younger, but I do now. I'm broken. I've been tormented mostly my whole childhood. My whole life was a lie.

A/N: well, that got deep. So just a quick sneak peek at the future, the next chapter's gonna go dark very fast, and also, after this story is over (which won't be for a LONG time), I'm gonna make either a Twilight/Pokémon cross over, or a Outsiders/Pokémon cross over. You guys tell me which one would be better. 'Kay that's all. See you next time!
-countrygirl1342