Die for us

Does this mean we're a couple now...?

Bryn’s POV –

I chose Jason over myself. I’m already in that deep? I’m not in love....I don’t know what I’m in. In all actuality I’m just...in like. Deep like. I just want to be with Jason every day and taking this chance is worth it no matter what the consequences will be for us in the end.

I never thought I’d have to make a decision like this. Now that I’m thinking over it I’m starting to see that it’s becoming harder for me to hide my feelings. I never had a problem like this before. Situations like this never occurred in my world....before I met Jason.

I look at Derek after I said my final decision and his facial expression fell from deep in interest to disgust in a matter for seconds. He looks down, nodding his head, tapping his finger on the counter countless times.

“Are you sure?” He asks me.

“Yes.” I reply without hesitation.

Derek looks at me, “You’re crazy. Choosing what you know is bad for you instead of what’s better.”

I scoff, “Are you fucking kidding me? You just told me to make a decision and now that I made one I’m in the wrong. Shut the fuck up.”

I shake my head, walking out of the kitchen and down the hall.

“I said make a decision not a dumb ass decision.” Derek retorts quickly, following me out of the kitchen.

I stop, my backing facing him. I’m sick and tired of him thinking he knows what’s best for me. I’ve been on my own since my parents died; I’ve made my owndecisions every day of my life. I know what I’m doing.

“When everything comes crashing down on you, don’t get mad when I say ‘I told you so.’” Derek uttered.

“When it all comes crashing down,” I begin to say, walking towards the railing of the stairs. I look at Derek, placing a foot on the first step. “Who knows if I’ll be alive to heat it?”

Derek was taken aback by my comment and I begin to walk up the stairs. I was so tired, I just wanted to sleep. Sleep and never wake up. Or sleep, wake up, go spend time with Jason and maybe even sleep with him. I wouldn’t mind that at all.

I walk down the hall, entering my room. I look at my bed once again and jump on top of it, burying my face into the blankets. After a while I look up on my bed side table and see something I had forgotten all about.

Jason’s hat.

I inwardly smile, outstretching my arm and grabbing it, bringing it close to me. I spin it in my hands, biting over my lip as I smiled. I roll over my on my back, lifting the hat up above my head, staring at it.

Will I see you tomorrow?

“I hope so.” I say, answering my own question.

I sigh once, resting the hat on my chest and closing my eyes. As crazy as it sounds I just wanted to be with Jason now. I was beginning to crave him, it wasn’t normal. I shouldn’t be like this, but I can’t help it. Just being with him is enough to make me happy. Truly happy.

I grip on to the hat, holding it close and relax myself against the bed. I keep my breathing calm, my chest rising and falling slowly. Eventually my tiredness waves over me and I fall fast asleep.

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The next morning I wake up to Blissity’s legs sprawled over my body, I hadn’t slept in the correct position and I doubt she cared anyway. He legs are over my back and she managed to have one of her feet lie in front of my face. I grimace, pushing her foot away from me and she stirs.