Bryn’s POV –
For once I actually was excited to wake up to a new day. Mainly because I knew who I’d be waking up to. Somehow, in the middle of the night, we shifted positions. I was turned in the opposite direction of Jason, my back facing him. I could feel his arms around me and his face buried into my hair.
I stir for a moment and open my eyes, looking at the door to my closet. Jason’s fingers flex on my stomach and he snuggles into my hair, still asleep. I smile, he was so adorable. I slowly move, trying my hardest not to wake Jason. I sit up, looking at Jason. I smile widely looking at how perfect he looked in his sleep.
Jason’s had his hand under his cheek, his other arm still around my stomach. His cheeks looked so soft. I just wanted to squeeze them but I knew that would wake him up. I had to take a picture of this. He looked like an angel.
Slowly I lean over Jason and grab my phone, trying to make the least amount of noise as possible. I unlock my phone and go to the camera and point it at Jason. His fingers flex again on my stomach before remaining still and I take a picture of him. I look at it for a moment before locking my phone and looking back at Jason. I lie down and stare at him, his breathing so calm and relaxed.
I felt so bipolar around Jason. I would be happy because I was in his presence and everything was perfect, but then I’d be sad at times because I know Jason only likes me for who he thinks I am.
He’ll never like me for me...and I don’t blame him. I stare at his features, wishing that somehow I could go back in time and have stopped myself from killing Jazmyn. I wish I could stop myself from falling in love with Jason but I simply can’t.
I’m in so deep and I know how hurt Jason will be when he finds out. After he told me about Veronica, who I for one thought was a bitch for cheating on Jason; I felt like...he was just running in circles.
Jason fell for Veronica, oblivious to the fact that she was only pretending to care for him while she was sneaking around with other guys. Then there’s me...Jason is falling, well I think he’s falling, for me when I’m pretending to be someone I’m not so he won’t kill me.
He’s doing a complete three-sixty and he doesn’t even see it.
I’m selfish for keeping this up, I know I am. But if someone else were in my position, they’d be just as selfish. I can’t stop loving Jason and I don’t want him to stop loving me. I know I don’t have to reveal the truth anytime soon; I can keep up the lie for as long as I need...but eventually I have to tell him.
However, I couldn’t bear to see Jason hurting; I can’t stand the thought of him feeling like a dumb ass for believing me for so long. For letting his feelings get the best of him...
I wish I wasn’t his last hope.
I shut my eyes, wanting to fall back asleep and hold onto Jason forever.
A minute or so passes and I feel Jason stirring. I turn my head, facing the ceiling, eyes still shut, as if I were sleeping. I can feel Jason’s eyes on me and he moves closer, hiding his face into my neck and pecking it. I take a deep breath, bringing my hand onto Jason’s arm and holding onto it.
“You stayed.” I say.
Jason nods his head into my neck, “I had to. You’re like the queen of cuddling.”
My eyebrows pull together and I smiling in misunderstanding, “What?”
“How do I put this...” Jason mumbles against my neck. “I woke up in the middle of the night; don’t ask why because it just happens sometimes.”
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Die for us
किशोर उपन्यासLet me just put it this way: She lied to him. He believed her. Now she lives with the guilt of knowing he's fallen for the girl she isn't. But she's a afraid to spill the truth. Because she knows the only thing he'd die for, Is vengeance.
