Die for us

You're always on my mind. Always.

Bryn’s POV –

My heart has never thumped against my chest so roughly before. Everything happened so slowly but at the same time it happened ever so quickly. I didn’t expect Jason to kiss me, I didn’t expect him to hold me so close or let alone touch my hand. All the gestures just led up to this one amazing kiss and I can honestly say that the two months were worth the wait.

At first, my eyes were open from the shock but they quickly shut as I fall deep into the kiss. My knees actually caved in and I leaned further against Jason, my hands on his chest. I was so nervous all of a sudden, it’s been so long since I’ve felt his soft lips against mine and it’s been so long since we’ve...done anything together. I don’t know what’s wrong with me; so many feelings are traveling throughout my entire body.

My lips press against Jason’s and my right hand subconsciously comes up to touch his cheek, stroking it as my fingers lead themselves to the back of his head. Our lips come apart but we both lean again and reattach them, tilting our heads in opposite directions as we do so. His hands were latched onto my hips, his fingers holding my waist delicately. I hear the kisses we exchange, I hear everything that goes on between us and I literally feel as if I were kissing him for the first time.

We pull away at the same time but once again we lean in and kiss each other again, I actually giggle and blush at the outburst but Jason simply smiles against my lips before creating one more passionate kiss. I was afraid that sharing a kiss like this, would somehow damage what little of love we have left for each other.

Jason was correct when he believed that if we were to kiss and it happened to feel any different than our old kisses, then we could no longer work this out. I don’t know for sure how this kiss felt to him but it meant the world to me and it didn’t feel different, in fact it felt better.

“Don’t say anything.” He whispers, opening his eyes just as I begin to open mine.

I nod my head and stare into his eyes, my smile disappears. I was lost in his gaze, I was under his spell and it felt great to be so close to him again. Our bodies were pressed against each other, his hands on my hips, mine on his chest. Our lips inches apart and our hearts beating in unison.

“Two months gave me a lot of time to think about everything.” He licks his lips, staring at mine briefly. “I thought about seeing other people and I’ve thought about leaving California...at one point I did consider committing suicide.”

I bite my lip, wanting to intrude but I just look away from him. My heart ached with the burden of knowing I’ve caused such thoughts to roam through his mind.

“But I would never leave you.” He sighs, shutting his eyes and resting his forehead against mine. “I’m in love with you.”

I smile again, lifting my head up so our noses were touching.

“I love you so much.” He mumbles. “Those two months haven’t done much but reminded me that the only place I belong is right here with you wrapped in my arms. Like this.”

I finally go to speak but he silences me with a soft kiss.

“I thought about you every night, the good and the bad.” He sighs, stroking my cheek with his thumb.

After that he falls silent and I open my eyes to stare into his. I wait for him to continue but instead of talking, he simply looks into my eyes and I stare back, depicting my reflection behind his irises.

A smile curls up at the corners of his lips, “You can say something if you want.”

I laugh lightly, “I know exactly how you feel and I know that these two months weren’t easy. Trust me, I wanted to see you so many times but I held back. I don’t want you to feel like you have to kill yourself...because of me.” I frown. “I love you just as much, maybe even more.”