Die for us

she never smiled the way she does now...

Jason’s POV –

The doubt still pokes at my mind as I hold Jane in my arms. Even if we made up, I can’t fully believe her.

I don’t even know if I meant what I said about wanting to take a break from our relationship. I know the entire time I’ll just contemplating ending the break and get back with her. I love her too much, I can’t just leave her and it seems the same through her perspective but how can I be sure?

I stare down the hallway, stroking Jane’s back. Jane was partially right with her reasoning for my wrong doing, but she’s still in the wrong. Gaining my trust was hard, losing it was easy.

I take my hand and move it to grab Jane’s hip, pulling out of the hug and begin to walk down the hallway. Jane leaves an arm around me, the other on my chest and we go downstairs. While we walk I decide to take her to the basement once I notice her fanning herself to stay cool. The basement was always a great temperature.

I can’t simply push past what happened between us just now. I can’t push past the fact that Jane has lied to me, which only causes me to believe that maybe she’s lying to me about other things. Sadly, as much as I want to give our relationship a break I can’t seem to find the strength to let her go.

I hold her side, comforting her while I open the basement door. She smiles an exhausted smile and starts walking downstairs; I shut the door behind me and walk down the stairs. Jane was sitting in Damien’s game chair, eyes shut.

“Baby, you ok?” I ask, kneeling down in front of her.

She nods, moving hair away from her face. I stare at her and she turns her head, groaning. She touches the back of her head and I see her eyes strain. I take her arms and lift her up, plopping down on the game chair and pulling her to sit on my lap. She rests against my shoulder.

“Did the doctors give you anything?” I ask, stroking her legs.

She nods and clears her throat. “They gave me some pills and I took two before I came, the side effects make me hot and I get dizzy sometimes. Don’t worry.”

Jane touches the back of her head again and tries to relax but she strains, looking around the room. I study her; worried that maybe her decision to come here wasn’t the best one. I start to shift in the seat and Jane looks at me tiredly.

“The light is irritating my eyes.” She says, softly placing her hands on my shoulders.

I look up at the light and decide to get up and shut it off. I carefully sit Jane on the chair and walk over to the far left of the room to flick the switch off. Jane tries to get comfortable in the seat as I make my way to her again. I lift her off of the chair and sit down, situating her on my lap and cradle her.

“Thank you.” She says sweetly, voice soft and tired.

“Is the medication making you tired?” I ask, stroking her arm.

Jane nods, her finger tapping my jaw. I hold her close, ignoring the pain in my stomach. I wanted her to be comfortable even if I got the opposite of that. I kiss her hair and shut my eyes, rocking the game chair back and forth.

“I want you to meet her.” Jane mumbles, her voice so distant I almost didn’t catch the sentence.

“Hmm?” I say.

Jane looks up at me and I turn my head to stare directly into her eyes.

“Blissity, my sister.” She says.

“Oh.” I reply, nodding my head. “I don’t mind.”

“You’ll love her.” She smiles. “Even if she’s annoying at times.”