Die for us

should stop and go back to the car, Jason.

Bryn’s POV –

“The gang, popcorn and a good movie. This is what I’m talking about, no more drama!” Tattiana cheers as she walks into the living room with a party sized bowl of popcorn in her hands.

I sit on the edge of the couch with a blanket wrapped around me. I stretch my legs over Blissity’s lap and she eyes me. I give her a cheeky smile and sit up,reaching for some popcorn before lying back down and staring at the TV screen.

Derek stands up to put in a movie for us to watch. Zoey and Tatti talked amongst themselves and Blissity stares at her nails, inspecting them. I pull out my phone and check the time. It’d be eleven very soon, this day had gone by faster than I expected it too.

For a moment, I stare my wallpaper, at the photo of Jason and I at the field together. I frown, staring at the smiles on our faces and lock my phone. We looked so happy then and now we just seem so distant and it seems like the feelings will never come back.

Maybe if we had kissed, it would have felt different. Even the way we say ‘I love you’ feels different.

Why did I have to kill Jazmyn? Why me out of all people? I should have never answered that fucking phone at Ryan’s house. Shit, I’m losing my game. The police will have me soon, I can feel it. Drew knows my secret, Jason and his gang obviously knows as well.

Now I fear that if the police do surround me, I won’t be able to get out of the predicament. I’m feeling extremely soft; all this Jason drama has really fucked up the evil side of me. I can still kick ass, that’s a given, but I don’t know why I feel like a part of me is changing.

The commercials for the movie begin playing and I sink into the cushions of the couch, getting more comfortable for the film. Derek says we’re watching “The Crazies” and I watch Blissity take a deep breath, Horror movies weren’t her favorites.

As the commercials continue on, I stare blankly at the screen and just think over the fact that I’m no longer with Jason. I wonder how he’s taking it...not being a couple anymore. I bet he’s doing fine, probably better than I am.

I sigh quietly and shut my eyes, waiting for the movie to start.

I agree with Blissity when she says she wants to be normal. I want to be normal too. It’s my fault our parents died, it’s my fault Blissity’s life isn’t normal, it’s my fault Jason can’t forgive me and it’s clearly my fault Jazmyn is no longer alive.

I need to move on and stop pondering over this situation but how can I stop when this is all that clogs my mind?

Love, hate, regret, guilt, animosity, and shame. Those words spin in circles throughout my mind, haunting me for the rest of my nights.

I hug the blanket close to me and stare at the screen, the movie was finally beginning.

Jason’s POV –

“Ariel? Cute name.” I smirk at her and grab her waist.

She steps closer to me, grabbing my arms and smiles like an angel. She seemed all too innocent even if she was moving a little too fast, I have a feeling she’s the type that likes to lead guys into thinking she’ll go all the way.

Now she steers me off of the dance floor and I follow her, perplexity ringing in the back of my mind. We walk out of the club into the main hall way and she makes a left turn then stands against the wall.

“Thanks.” She finally says. “It was really loud in there, sorry.”

“Well, clubs are usually loud.” I chuckle, placing my hand on the wall over her shoulder.