a/n: i am attemping angst so here ya go.
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Falling in love with someone is always easy. Even if you're not meant to be with them or feel that way, it's still happy because your heart feels light and you feel excited and nervous.
Falling out of love always hurts, because there's no way to feel happy. Even if it's a mutual decision to break up, you won't be happy. You can't be, because your heart feels heavy and your head hurts.
What's worse is when you just lose the spark with them. Sure, you can end unhappily because you argue with them all the time or they cheat, but you can still live with it.
But when you lose the spark, it feels bitter. You remember everything, and no matter what, you can't see what went wrong. Sometimes, nothing went wrong.
Some things seem to be too perfect to be true, and then the illusion fades and everything crashes and burns.
You don't instantly fall out of love with somebody. It's gradual.
It's holding their hand, not because you want to or because you feel tingles when you do, but because you feel obligated to.
It's when you realize you don't find the urge, the need, to kiss them every single day.
It's when you realize that you're only with them because that's how it has always been. You're with them because it's all you know how to do.
It's knowing that they feel the same, that you're both exhausted and just want to go to sleep and forget about it all.
It hurts the most because you don't want to fall out of love. It just happens.
When they finally leave you, you're only left with the memories of what being young and in love feels like.
People always crash and burn, but it doesn't make them get any more used to it.
Things just don't work out the way you want, and that is life's lesson to teach you.
fin
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a/n: how was that?
i have no idea.
