They were at a party when it happened, and honestly, Dan should've known that Phil would think it was a mistake. Who was Dan kidding?
Phil would never reciprocate his feelings. He was just unreachable, and Dan was stupid to think this could've meant something.
It still didn't stop his heart from aching when he confronted Phil the next day.
"Christ, Dan!" Phil exclaimed, running his hands through his hair stressfully. "I was drunk! It didn't mean shit."
Drunk. Yes, Phil was drunk, Dan knew that. But he had always heard that saying about how drunk actions were sober thoughts.
Whoever thought of that must've been fucking mistaken, then, because Dan could see on Phil's face that if anything, Dan was annoying him.
It still didn't make him lose hope, stupidly enough.
"B-But," Dan stammered. "There must've been something! You don't make out with people for no reason!"
Phil glared at him, and Dan was taken aback by how mad he looked. "I have a girlfriend," Phil stated.
"G-Girlfriend? You never told me that.." Dan whispered, a bit hurt. Phil always told him everything, didn't he?
Did Phil not care about him as much as he thought he did?
Phil rolled his eyes. "I don't have to tell you every fucking thing Dan, but yes, I have a girlfriend." Phil leaned against the wall, and suddenly he looked calm and happy. "Her name's Alexia," he said, happily.
Everything about him was happy now that he mentioned his girlfriend.
Dan wanted to say one last thing before this got too difficult for him, and he really didn't want to embarrass himself in front of Phil. Phil probably already had a hint on how Dan felt, and he didn't want to ruin this.
"I hope you are happy with her," Dan said quietly, before turning and walking away.
Phil didn't say anything.
----
Phil didn't talk to him after that.
Dan would just randomly see him sometimes, and most of the time, he saw him shoving his tongue down a girl's throat. Alexia's throat, he presumed.
And really, Dan should be getting over him now that he is distant, but it didn't help. A friend would try to tell him out of concern that Phil wasn't worth it, but a part of him disagreed.
Maybe he just had a really good image of him, and nothing of what he was like now. He didn't like how Phil was now.
Phil wasn't his best friend. He wasn't the person he would turn to when he needed somebody to help him. He wasn't the person who would listen to all of what Dan had to say, just to make him feel better. He wasn't like that now.
Phil was happier this way too. He was happy getting wasted at parties, even though he never liked parties before. He was happy being with Alexia, even though it was common knowledge to everyone that Alexia was cheating on him. Phil would've probably walked in on her with someone several times by now, if rumors were to be trusted.
Isn't that sad too? The only new things he hears about Phil are rumors, or things that pass through to him.
Phil didn't miss him, or care, or anything. Dan was just probably some guy to him at this point.
Dan eventually accepted this. There was nothing he could do about it anyways.
But he was never over it. He was just sad, because things could've gone in a different way. He wished they did.
----
then the time for being sad is over
and you miss 'em like you miss no other
and being blue is better than being over it
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fin.
so this one was short, but sometimes, making it long just gets rid of the emotions.
(sorry for making this sad. kudos if you remember which oneshot Alexia was mentioned it.)
~Ashley
