Niji Academy [Completed]

CHAPTER 32

[SAIRI]

After that conversation with Mizu, I got back to the dorm and tried to sleep but I couldn’t. I just stared at the ceiling while my mind was full of Kaze and Mizu’s words. They’re too confusing. I didn’t even notice that it was lunch already not until Raiton called me on the phone. I stood up and got out of the dorm. Guess they were already at the cafeteria so I went there.

Firoah’s not with them. Gusto ko mamg itanong sa kanila kung nasaan siya at bakit hindi namin siya kasabay, hindi ko ginawa dahil ayaw ko nang mabigyan nila ng kahulugan iyon. As usual, they were loud as we were eating our lunch and I’m used to it. I just listened to their petty fights as I ate.

“Si Shin ba ‘yon?” Raiton asked all of a sudden.

My brows were furrowed as my gaze diverted into him. As what I knew, Shin was on a mission for a month. Maybe he’s done with his mission? When he noticed me staring at him, he pointed his finger on something behind my back so I turned to see where he was looking at.

Sa gilid ng cafeteria malapit sa bintana, nakaupo si Shin habang kumakain. He looked happy as he talked with a girl while they were eating. Para silang nag-aasaran at nagkatutuwaan. They even looked like a couple as I watched them.

Firoah...

How did they know each other? And why was she smiling and laughing like that to my brother? She didn’t even laugh like that to me.

Kaya ba siya hindi sumabay sa LEs dahil mas gusto niyang kasabay si Shin?

A sudden pain struck in my heart as that thought crossed on my mind.

Why am I feeling this? Why am I hurting seeing her happy with someone else? And why am I hoping it was me?

I badly wanted to snatch her away from my brother. I badly wanted her to smile at me like that and it should only be me who can make her smile!

Aish! Why am I feeling this? Why am I... jealous?

I looked away as I emptied my plate. Marahas din akong tumayo at nilagay iyon sa tray nang wala na itong laman ngunit nasagi iyon ng kamay ko nang patalikod na ako’t aalis na sana sa cafeteria. The tray landed on the floor. Nagkalat ang bubog ng baso at pinggan sa sahig at lumikha iyon ng ingay at naagaw ang atensyon ng iba.

What did I do?

“Sai...” mahinahong sambit ni Hikari sa pangalan ko.

I heard Raiton’s laugh but I didn’t look at him. I’m sure he’s reading my mind now. Mizu even laughed too.

“You don’t like her, huh?” bulong niya pa na narinig ko naman. “Firoah and Shin look good together. What can you say, Sai?”

Napapikit ako, nagtitimping huwag siyang lingunin at napabuntong-hininga ng ioang beses upang kumalma saka umalis sa cafeteria. I even slammed the door as I got out.

I ruffled my hair in frustration and stormed my way to the rooftop. Ilang beses pa akong napasigaw at hinilot ang sentido ko. Nasuntok ko rin ang pader bago naging mahinahon. I didn't mind if my hand got hurt. I just want to release this frustration and pain. I’m too confused with myself, too confused with what I feel.

Naupo ako sa sahig at isinandal ang likod ko sa banister, nakakuyom ang mga kamao, habang iniisip ang nakita sa cafeteria.

She’s happy with him, huh? I should be thankful with it. I should be thankful she could be happy with another guy ‘cause I can’t do it to her. I’ll just hurt her.

Siguro nagkamali lang si Kaze nang sabihin niyang may gusto siya sa akin. Siguro, wala talaga or crush lang iyon.

I bit my lowerlip and looked up the sky. Siguro, iyon nga. Pero bakit nga ako nagkagaganito?