Mrs.Devante Swing

Angel of Mine

-At the wedding dress shop-

-Pilar's pov-

It's the middle of June, and im ready to get the wedding planning on a roll. to be quite honest, im a little stressed about this wedding. ive gotta manage my career and the wedding planning. but, i cant wait to marry the love of my life. as i try on dresses, i constantly think about the baby. for some reason, some days im okay with what happened, and other days i blame myself for the incident. im just trying my best to keep this situation between me, De and Shaunte'.

-Knock Knock-

Pilar: yes?

Laura: ive gotten more stuff from the racks. this dress right here (passes her the dress) is more of what you're looking for. so let me help with you get into the dress.

-Laura, the Bridal parlor worker, helped Pilar into her the dress.-

Pilar: (looks into the mirror) i love it! 

Laura: lets go out there and show everybody.

~i walk out, proud and happy. the dress is so beautiful. the huge train the starts from my shoulders, and this angel/queen vibe that im getting from wearing this. i love it.~

Phyllis: i love this dress! you look amazing baby. (tears up)

Pilar: thank you mama! what do you think Shaunte'?

Shaunte': it's you! all the way you. (smiles)

~As they are giving me compliments, i cant help but to look at my stomach, a very empty and baby-less stomach. its like the baby's spirit is still with me. my first child is here to stay, and i dont want it to leave. i wish i couldve found out if it was a boy or girl. ill just call it a "little angel".~

Laura: so? (smiles)

Pilar: ill take it! now, lets find me a crown and some earrings. (marches off)

-At the studio-

Andre: (comes through the studio door) ard! whats the next song that yall gotta record?

Devante: (spinning in his chair) "Treat U"

Andre: okay. so lets get that set up. and imma send "Forever My Lady" to the radios, so we can get that song poppin'. as yall already know, we plan on releasing the album next January. after that, we will go on tour. now, it may seem like an eternity for the album to be released, but we need to put out singles so that we can "musically convince" R&B and New Jack Swing listeners to buy yalls album.

Jo-Jo: sounds like a plan.

Dalvin: i just cant wait for the album to drop!

K-ci: yeah! its gonna be somethin serious! 

Andre: welp, imma let yall get to work. imma go home and watch Oprah. deuces. (leaves out)

Dalvin: whats up with him and Oprah?

Jo-Jo: i dont know. (laughs)

---At the house---

Pilar: (getting some water) thank yall for coming with me. 

Phyllis: no problem. (getting in the chair at the counter)

Pilar: i dont know what im gonna do about you and Malina, Shaunte'.

Shaunte: What do you mean? (sits down at the counter)

Pilar: both of yall are pregnant, and so for the bridesmaid and Matron of honor dresses, imma have to continue to get yall fitted. imma just wait until September for yall to get the dresses. 

Shaunte': well, im sorry that i got pregnant. (laughs) 

Pilar: very funny. (smiles)

Phyllis: well, i must go, im going over to your grandma's house to have lunch with her and Juanita. 

Pilar: ok, see ya.

Phyllis: bye. (walks out)

Pilar: you know, i gotta be honest with you. when i was wearing that dress, i couldn't stop thinking about the baby. it was like the spirit was with me. 

Shaunte': yeah? (smiles)

Pilar: (smiles back) yeah. being pregnant, even for just that short amount of time, has changed me. its made me become a more focused, caring, sort of a more emotional, woman. 

Shaunte: absolutely. that most certainly does happen. 

Pilar: you know, De tells me all of the time that im glowing. not just because im engaged, but because i was pregnant. i look beautiful to him. just the simple fact that i carried his baby, makes him look at me differently. he always touch my stomach when we are in bed. he rubs it and tells the baby that he loves it. 

Shaunte: thats so sweet! (smiles)

Pilar: i know! one day, we're gonna get a print a big picture of the sonogram. 

Shaunte: where are you gonna put it?

Pilar: in my closet. nobody goes in there but me and him. 

Shaunte: im so sorry that you're going through this. 

Pilar: i am too! (tears start to fall down her face)

Shaunte': come here. (they hug) im so sorry! (rubs Pilar's back) it will get better, i promise. everything happens for a reason. (stops hugging)

Pilar: i know. this might sound stupid, but it would help me get over the miscarriage if i was able to find out the sex of the baby. im tired of calling the baby "it".

-Devante comes through the door.-

Devante: hey yall! (goes upstairs)

Shaunte: im gonna leave yall alone. you need to talk to him, P. 

Pilar: i know. 

Shaunte: see you tomorrow. (walks out)

-Pilar goes into her room.-

Pilar: hey. (gets in bed with Devante)

Devante: have you been crying?

Pilar: yeah. i was thinking about the baby. 

Devante: me too.

Pilar: do you think it was a boy or girl?

Devante: i have a feeling that it was boy. 

Pilar: me too. im just tired of not having any answers to my questions.

Devante: everything will be okay. (places hand on her stomach) i promise you! 

-Devante this talks to her stomach-

Devante: i know that you're not there anymore, but i know that your spirit is still here. i wonder what you wouldve been. just give us a sign. anything will help us come up with an answer. if its me all of a sudden wanting to watch baseball all day, or if i keep on seeing baby boy shoes, or if i want to watch chick flicks and constantly see fathers and daughters bond. ill take those as signs. im sorry that we couldnt protect you the way that we could have. but, please dont blame mommy. it was all her ex-boyfriend's fault. i love you. (kisses her stomach)

Pilar: (crying) i love you.

Devante: i love you too baby. more than you. i just wanna thank you for being the mother of my first child. i really am grateful.

Pilar: you're welcome. 

-they start to kiss. from kissing, they end up naked. Devante tries to comfort Pilar with his love making. soothe her with every touch, lick and kiss. the pain in her heart goes away temporarily, as they make each other feel good physically.-

_____________________________________________________________________________________i hope yall enjoyed this chapter! thanks for reading!