Our Little Secret

Chapter 64

Sarah
"This shit is ten times worse on the way down!" I cry out as I am trying to find my way down the staircase of doom. "I am never forgiving you for bringing me on this staricase of hell!" I shout and cling on to the reeling closest to the building.

"Would you relax?" Jack shouts back, wearing a big ass grin on his face, he obviously enjoys seeing me bothered. "We are almost at the bottom, now shut up will you?"

So much for the feelings I felt earlier. "Go and die will you!" I scream loudly into the air.

Jack's face pop out over the reeling a few floors down and he is wearing an annoyed expression. "Shut up before the residents hear you and call the cops."

"Oh my lord, I knew it! This is illegal!" I squeal horrified. "Dear god, I am so dead. I am not meant for shit like this." I ranter worriedly, mostly for myself, as I slowly climb down.

"I can't believe that I am doing this."

"Heights is not my thing."

"I am so going to prison."

"You are not going to prison." I hear Jack's voice from below.

"You don't know that!" I snap at him.

"Trust me, I do." He tells me patiently.

"Yeah well, I will probably not even make it to prison since I will probably die berforehand." I mutter.

Jack doesn't answer, however I can see the image of him rolling his eyes at me before me.

"Stupid boys, with their idiotic ideas." I continue my mutter as I proceed down. "Stupid me, with my stupid feelings for stupid guys like this moron."

"I can still hear you." Jack points out, the sound of his voice stronger than before.

"Good, I hope guilt is feeling your iditoic brain." I tell him grumpily.

"Sorry, baby, it's not." He tells me, not looking a tad bit regretful about exposing me to one of my biggest fears. "Now stop complaining, you are at the bottom."

He is actually speaking the truth, believe it or not. I am at the bottom of the staircase, with only one sets of stairs left to go. Letting out a giant breath of relief, I climb down carefully and feel like kissing the ground when my feet connect with it.

"Thank god!" I sigh relieved and can finally relax for the first time since we started the journey downwards.

"It wasn't that bad." Jack says cockily.

"Watch it, or I will punch you in the face." I tell him sternly, being completely serious. "How about next time we take one of your biggest fears and expose you to it, while I stand by and laugh at you?" I snap at him, not having let go of all the anxiety just yet.

"Grumpy are we?" Jack smiles, showing off his perfect teeth and coming closer to me.

"Yes, very grumpy." I pout and cross my arms, trying to look more angry than I am. Truth is that this moment means the world to me, except for the staircase of Satan. Otherwise I am very glad that Jack brought me here.

"Is there anyway that I can make you happy again?" Jack tries to persuade me.

"Tell me about your past." I try him, raising a brow expectedly.

"Hell no." He says bluntly and shakes his head. I try to convince him by pouting yet again, however it is not working. "I told you, I will not talk about shit like that, this day has been tough as it is and I do not need more crap to be added."

"Fine." I sigh grumpily and pass Jack, walking out from the alley to the larger street that connects with it. I start walking down the sidewalk, however I don't get too far before I realize that Jack hasn't followed me. When I turn around, I notice that he is standing back where I started to walk and laughing at me. That is when I understand that I have walked the wrong way. Stomping my way back, I pass Jack's laughing posture.

"Just shut up!" I snap, but have a huge smile displaying on my lips. Not that Jack can see it since I am walking in front of him.

A few days passes without Jack even mentioning what happened on that rooftop. I believe that he is trying to play it cool and probably does not want to admit his moment of "weakness", as he probably considers it. I am not going to push him though, obviously he will talk to me when he is in need of it. Like on the rooftop. I have tried to force Jack to talk to me and all that have lead to is arguments. He obviously showed me that he will open up if he feels like it and this makes me feel very special. I personally only open up to people if I feel that I can trust them and I believe that Jack is somewhat the same, if not even more restricted than me. I have never really understood those types of persons who rant on about their personal life to anyone. I actually believe that I have taken a really big step when it comes to Jack, since he is talking to me about his problems and feelings. He barely even tells my mum about this on their sessions. She has worked with Jack for quite a while now and she practically has to force him into telling her things. Now I don't mean personal things, I mean anything. Jack is a very secluded person and he does not talk about his life in general. Sometimes he doesn't even wish to tell you what he had for breakfast, however I believe that was mostly teasing from his side... Anyways, I have, literally, been walking on clouds these past few days. I cannot really believe that things are going so well with him. Yes, we fight a lot. Like a lot, a lot. However we are honest to each other when we do it and does not hold back on our thoughts.

Truthfully I became fairly surprised when he said that he was tired of all the prejudice and of the "expected behavior". I never suspected Jack to carry those kind of thoughts. I thought he enjoyed behaving like he does, carelessly and reckless.

It is rather fascinating how you can go weeks believing that you know a person, inside out, just to then realize that you for a fact only know a little part. I wish Jack would tell me about his past, I want to know all of him, not just the present Jack. Hopefully he feels the same way. Nevertheless, I know he has had a rough past, how rough I do not know though, and I will not force him to tell. Although, yes, I am "nagging" him every now and then. However, that is only teasing. Though, I am not entirely sure if he understands that. Maybe I should tell him that he doesn't need to feel pressured into telling me anything and show my gratitude towards him for opening up to me. I am not sure if he realizes just how much it actually meant to me.