he isnt that bad

rachel's choice

the next day rachel woke up her mind had cleared on atleast one decision she had to make she still couldnt believe  what happened yesterday or how she hadnt realised before.

rachel got up trying her best not to wake maggie up charles was stalling regarding the divorce so she and sebastian had stayed at their house for the past few nights.

jacob was still asleep rachel went for a quick shower once she was dressed she woke jacob up watching his little stretches and yawns he was so adorable.

rachel picked him up cuddled him kissed his forehead while she knew her life was going to so different with having him she couldnt imagine not having him.

rachel made her way down stairs she could here the shower running in the guestroom meaning sebastian was up.

her dads were both up sipping coffee in the living room jacob was gwtting restless she knew he was hungry so she sat down on the couch to breastfeed him.

" you ok sweetie " leroy asked

" yeah but there is something i want to talk to you about" rachel said

" ok" hiram said

" well you know how i was ill towards the end of my pregnancy and i was put on bed rest by my doctor" rachel said

" yeah" leroy said

" well as a result of that and been off school when i had jacob i am seriously behind woth my school work and i have been stressing and losing sleep over graduating" rachel said

" you have worked very hard" leroy said

" well i have been thinking the most import thing i can do with my time right now is look after jacob and sebastian is a year below me school wise. so i was thinking maybe i shouldnt focus so much on graduating and repeat senior year that way jacob will be older when i eventually graduate and that would make going to college easier i wouldnt be breastfeeding him then he could go to a day care. plus i know sebastian is planning on new york for college so if we both graduate next year we would both be going. the other reason is i cant bare the thought of leaving jacob with sebastian while i go to new york and i cant take him with me it wouldnt be fair to take him away from his dad" rachel said

" well i am alittle disappointed but i do understand  and its clear with what you have said that thi isnt a snap decision you have made" hiram said

" i have to do whats best for jacob not me" rachel said

" im proud of you your an amazing mom and i know you have a lot on your plate and i can completely understand about waiting to go to new york plus if you do what you say if sebastian is in new york that would helpmyoumout too then you could focus on your college work" leroy said

" so you both agree" rachel asked

" if you feel its in your sons best interests then we respect that" hiram said

" thank you" rachel said tearing up

" oh honey" leroy said

" i was worried what you were going to say" rachel said

" honey i know its hard your young and we are responsible for you but your responsible for jacob and we respect that" hiram said as sebastian came down the stairs he looked tired and seemed upset when he saw her.

" you ok" he asked

" yeah though there is something i need to discuss with you" rachel said

" ok" sebastian said

" why dont we take our coffees into the garden" leroy said to hiram who nodded and they left sebastian sat down next to her.

" is this about yesterday " sebastian asked

" no" rachel said

" oh" sebastian said looking alittle relieved

" i have made a decision and my dads are in agreement with me i am so behind at school the wlrry of graduation has been stressing me out and not just thay but what happens after  that like college. well i know your worried about me taking jacob away to go to college. well i have decided im not going to graduate this year im going to repeat senior year then both of us will gradute at the same time. so then we both would be going to new york at the same time then you wont be apart form jacob " rachel said

" thank you i have to admit the thought of not seeing him everyday has been getting to me" sebastian said looking at jacob who was still feeding.

" i know that" rachel said

" i  really appreciate you taking my feelings into account" sebastian said

" its whats best for jacob he needs both of us" rachel said

" we both need him" sebastian said  as jacob stopped feeding and he tuck him to burp him.

" we do" rachel said stroking jacob's head as he then threw up all down sebastian

" oh no" rachel said

" its ok im just glad it was that end this time" sebastian said getting up

" you want me to take him while you change" rachel asked

" no i will take him up with me incase you havent noticed the smell coming from him i dont think im the only one who needs to be changed" sebastian said before carrying jacob upstairs.

later that day

rachel was at school finn was ignoring her which suited her she had been worried he might have told kurt about sebastian's confession though thankfully kurt seemed completely oblivious to it. blaine on the other had kept smiling at her she couldnt shake off the feeling that he knew though she didnt have a clue how he could it was just a sense she was picking up on.

after school rachel made her way home as she walked inside he house maggie was stood holding jacob

" hey look who is feeling better" maggie said as jacob was smiling

" hey baby" rachel said taking him and cuddling him.

" seb told me about your decision" maggie said

" oh" rachel said

" yeah it means a lot to him" maggie said

" i cant take jacob from him its not right on either of them" rachel said as sebastian walked into the house.

" hey" sebastian said

" hey" rachel said

" these are to say thank you" sebastian said showing her beautiful bouquet of flowers.

" you didnt have to" rachel said

" yes i did you dont know how happy i am about it" sebastian said maggie tuck the flowers while rachel handed jacob to sebastian.

" hello little man your feeling better i can tell yes i can your so  ute yes you are and your staying here next year that makes daddy very very happy" sebastian said in his baby voice rachel tuck the flowers to go put them in a vase.