he isnt that bad

can we talk

rachel was sat in the living room with kurt and blaine kurt had brought some baby clothes for jacob that he had ordered online they were adorable the first was aan all in one pale blue one with a bunny on it, the second was a black all in one with a bunch of berries on it. the last one was so cute he had had a onsie made in the style of the dalton blazer it was so cute she knew sebastian would love it.

" well what does yummy mommy think" kurt asked

" i love them" rachel said as the front door burst open and in walked sebastian with a very determined expression on his face.

" everything alright" rachel asked she worried if it was maggie had charles done something.

" can we talk" sebastian asked

" yeah ok" rachel said

" kurt how about i treat you to lunch at breadstixs come on" blaine said almost dragging kurt out of the house rachel wondered what was going on.

sebastian walked over and sat dosn next her he took a deep breath then...

"rachel i know now might not be the best time but i csnt go on any longer without saying this. i dont want to ulset you but i started to  tell you something the nivht youmlost your dads i understand with what happened that your mind was all over the place to remember  that. however it needs to be said and inorder tl do it properly i have tk take you back to the night we spent together" sebastian said

"ok" rachel said wondering what he was going to say she didnt really remember much of that night

" well first of all you remember that day in the lima bean when i told you guys we were going to do Michael Jackson well the reason i heard what you guys were saying that day was i was watching you no that sounds creepy i was admiring you. you looked absolutely stunning that day not that you dont everyday but i dont know there was something about you that day. anyway it was pretty clear to me the crush i had on you since i met you had turned into something much more than that. so that night you came to dalton to the party when you arrived i could see that you were upset i wanted to know why then trent told me about you and finn breaking up. trent told me how blaine had told him you had taken it to heart that quinn was a cheerio  and that she was popular and pretty and you had started thinking yourself ugly. so i decided to tell you that i thought you were beautiful however i needed some courage to do so so i had a few drinks . all the warblers knew of my crush on you they started egging me on to tell you so i did. i told you that you were the most beautiful girl i had ever seen and that i was in love with you. your didnt reply atleast not vocally you kissed me it was amazing. i know alot has happened since that night and i know you said you dont know how you feel but i can quite honestly say my feelings have only deepened. i love you  " sebastian said rachel had sat listening to him her hesrt pounding and tears running down her face.

" i um i..." rachel stuttered

" im not expecting you to say anything i understand that you might need time you have a lot going on but i wanted you to know" sebastian said tears dripping down his face.

" wow" rachel said trying to take in what he had said

" im gonna go make some coffee" sebastian asked getting up and walking into the kitchen leaving her sat there her mind racing her heart beating fast she replayed what he had said over in her mind thennlooked at jacob laid looking up at her in her arms.

rachel got up placed him in his bouncy chair and headed to the kitchen as she entered the room sebastian was facing away from her  though she could tell he was crying. she couldnt believe it when he had accidentally shouted that he loved her she thought it was because she was jacob's mom it hadnt occured to her that he had loved her for aslong has he had.

ever since she had had jacob her mind would race with tnoughts making it hard for her to make decisions only as she stood there her mind was made up she knew what she wanted she decided to be brave. she walked over to sebastian his back still facing her the noise of the coffee machine drowning out her footsteps he had no idea she was there until she placed her hand on his shoulder. he froze momentarily in shock at her been there but he then put down the spoon he had been holding and turned to face her rachel looked at him for a moment he held her gaze but looked nervous.

" rachel  i..." he started to say

" its my turn to talk" rachel said

" ok" sebastian said

" you said i kissed you thst night" rachel asked

" yeah" sebastian said

" was it like this" rachel said before doing just that...