he isnt that bad

the next morning

rachel had managed to sleep she figured it must have beennthe utter exhaustion as she had thought she woukdnt be able to sleep as her mind was buzzing with thoughts.

she woke up early thanks to jacob who was crying in his travel cot she hadnt gotton up during the night she must have slept through his cries the thought making her feel guilty.

she got uo and walked over and as jacob saw her he settled slightly still crying but nit as loud she picked him up the smell hit her nostrils as she did.

" somone needs a clean diaper" rachel said she looked round and saw some on the dresser so she set about changing him.

once he was all clean she placed him back in his travel cot inorder to go wash ber hands once she had dobe thwt she picked him up carried him to her bed she climbed in but remained sat uo holding him to her. now clean he was happy and smiling up at her no matter how she felt his smile always made her feel better. especially today after her world had fallen apart. it also made her feel better as a mom she had felt guilty having him young that he. might miss out on somethings because of it but whennhe smiled she knew he was happy so she knew ehe wasnt doing to bad a job.

he became restless ready for his breakfast so rachel started to breastfeed him she placed with his little fingers as he fed.

knocking on the bedroom door

" come in" rachel said the door opened and in walked maggie with a tray

" morning love" maggie said waljing over and setting it on her nightstand

" you didnt have to" rachel said

" nonsense its no trouble" maggie said she sat down on the bed watching jacob.

" did he cry last night" rachel asked

" a couple of time but nit for long" maggie said

" i dont understand  he never must goes back to sleep " rachel said

" sebastian slept outside your door in a sleeping bag inorder to help you with jacob and incase you woke up crying" maggie said rachel's eyes filled up.

" oh" was all rachel could muster to say.

" i know this will be the last thing you want to talk about right now but you must wonder why I stayed with charles as lont as i did" maggie said

" i have to admit i have wondered your lovely charles isnt" rachel said

" charles wasnt always how he is now when i met him he was ambitious and had big dreams but he was fun exciting and adventurous. the first few years were amazing it was only well his buisness became successful that he started to change. i had dreams too i wanted to run my own little bistro charles and i met at college i was training to be a chef" maggie said

" wow" rachel said

" charles was very supportive of me back then he had grown up in a different world to me his family is what you would call new money he was surrounded by girls wanting a wealthy husband. wheras i had my on dreams he liked thst he respected that. we got married our dreams started coming true then i discovered i was going to have my seb. life was good it was while i was pregnant his law firm really took off then when seb was born he changed. he was determined that sebastian would follow in his footsteps he became contolling i was worried he would my innocent littke in his image. thats why i stayed i knew if i left him he would fight for custody of him i couldnt allow seb to be alone with him to be changed by him. now is differnet seb is o,der has you pro9have realised he has his own mind. then when he came home and told me he was going to be a father and i saw him become the man i wanted him to be not the cold hearted bully his father had hoped he would be. i knew then that charles had lost his quest to do that because the way he was with seb is what has made seb want to be the father tbat he is." maggie said

" he is a good dad"  rachel said

" he is i know im biased as he is mine but im proud of him and  of you  they way you to have put your differences aside for jacob's sake you should be proud hacob is a lucky boy he has to amazing parents" maggie said

"  do you think my dads were proud of me " rachel said getting upset as jacon finshed his feed she started burping him.

" they were so proud of you when seb and i stayed at your house they spoke constantly of how good a mom you are and how proud they were of how you thought of the future putting jacob first. hiram told me he had gone tk the supermarket the and saw a girl about your age with a baby and she was walking around the story holding her child then as soon as the baby cried she banded her to her mother to deal with and went and looked at cd he said you would never do that. leroy said he actually wished you would let them help kore instead of trying to do everything yourself srb said the ssme thing. so yes rachel your fathers here extremely proud of you" maggie said as sebastian walked in holding a tray with a coffee pot and three mugs.

" morning  " rachel said

" morning" he said placing the tray next to the one maggie  had brought.

" give him here yoy eat" sebastian said taking jacob maghie placed the tray she had brought up on rachel's lap it had a croissant and some fruit and a glass off orange juice.

" i can make you a cooked breakfast but i didnt know if you would be awake" maggie said

" this is perfect" rachel said before starting to eat she didnt feel hungry hut knew with breastfeeding she needed to eat plus maggie had gone to the trouble to do it.

kurt and blaine poked their heads around the door door.

" hey" blaine said

" can we come in" kirt asked

" ofcourse" rachel said tears started to flows as kurt came over and hugged her.

" why dont i bring breakfast up for all of us " maggie said getting up blaije sat where she had been and tuck hold of her hand.

"  feel like im dreaming like it isnt real" rachel said

" thats natural " kurt said hugging her once more.

" can you give us a minute" rachel asked kurt and blaine who nodded.

" thank you for looking after jacob last night" rachel said

" you dont have to thank me i like doing it" sebastian said

" thank you anyway" rachel said

" your welcome " sebastian said