Never Forever

Mmmm Dreams

Despite the fact that we hadn't gotten caught right then, we did eventually when I had gotten my first detention since the fifth grade for PDA..

Public Displays of Affection

Crying, I told my dad and since then, x was bliss. I felt better. We saw each other more and now..

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He is very sensual and I'm getting comfortable with him more and more.. Today, I had decided to wear all pink. I hate pink but I can wear it.. I'm complicated.. I was already tired and the day went on as usual at school..

Until it was time for lunch..

I was walking down the stairs and then all of a sudden, when I had reached the bottom, he came charging at me. I froze and realized that he was going to kiss me. But then he began to squeeze my butt and kiss my neck.

"Hoseok stop." I said in a breathy tone. My panties were moistening with every touch but he kept on. I bit my lip and clutched my books tighter. "Hoseok.." He presses his lips against mine and allowed his hand to enter my pants. His fingers easily gliding up against my rose as I released small moans in his mouth and began to sink down in the corner to stop him.

As soon as I hit the floor, I no longer felt his hands or lips as I heard the door close. I shielded my face with the books as I panted.

"Leona, are you okay?"
I looked up at the voices and nodded. "Yeah. I'm fine. Just tired."

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I bit my bottom lip to keep quiet. His face was all I saw and my body kept aching for him. Hoseok. I kept chanting in my head. My legs starting to feel like jelly and the air becoming thicker and thicker with each and every-.

*Alarm sings*

My eyes shot open as I sat up in a cold sweat. Regain control of myself, I look around to check if he's here. A sigh leaves my mouth as my eyes roll back in relief. I then let my head droop down to allow my brain to try and reboot for the day. Once awake, I notice I had some cleaning up yo do with my bedsheets and panties while thinking, Damn.. He's not even here and he does this to me.

Shaking my head, I cleaned up, started boiling water from my green tea and got dressed. After the basics, I went to campus for my classes. They went on as usual but my head just couldn't drop the image of Ho-seok's sexy body towering over me and the feeling I got when he would plant kisses on my body. Or when his hands would-. Stop it Leona! Focus!

Lunch was always the hardest part of my day for me because I remember how we would always eat together at lunch in high school.. I didn't think it impacted me at first, but then when he wouldn't be at school some days, if notice how alone I was in comparison to the rest of the cafeteria.

Reading never felt the same.

Eating..

Nothing..

Absolutely nothing felt the same after he moved away to go to college.

And I hated myself.

How could I become so dependant? How could I become so dependant on him (his company) to keep me happy? I used to be so independent and so strong willed. (And so depressed) Why is that I can't keep that and still be with him?

And look at me now.
Drooping face, raindrops for eyes and cold food sitting before me. And anytime anyone would ask me if I'm okay, I'd say yes with the biggest smile you'd ever see before immediately dropping it after you leave.

I can almost never wait to go home at the end of the day to be completely alone with my art, books and music. But I miss him..

Nothing is the same..

My desire for him to appear before me and butter me up with his touch and kisses became overpowering. So, I decided to fix it once and for all. Biting my lip in the process, I allowed my hand to crawl around and see if that would calm me down before I gained the furious urge to really fix my problem. My mind began to make everything seem real as if these were his hands toying with my rose with the slow rub.

The air became thicker. The bed was too hot and never absorbed any liquids fast enough to dry. And right in the middle of it, I got a phone call.

"Hello?"
"Hey baby." I smiled and tried to fix my voice so that I'd sound normal to him. "I missed you." He said.
You have no idea. I thought.
"You did?"
"Mmhhmm."
"Mmmm-well that's too bad." I said trying to shuffle a moan.
"Why is that?"
"Well because that's gonna be a whole four more days before that happens."
"I know. I know." He sighed. "Do you miss me?"
"No." I lied. "I don't have to anymore while I'm talking to you."
"But.. Do you miss me?"
"Mmmmmmayyyybe." I bit my lip.
"Baby your voice sounds so sexy. Are you sleepy?"
"No. Not really." My voice unintentionally dragged out the last word with a sexy groggy tone to it. Like Jessica Rabbit.
"Mm. I see."
"You can't see me. I'm all the way back here. Half the state away from you."
"Mmhhmm.. Baby. Why are you so sexy?"
"What do you mean, Oppa?"
"Mm. Why do you do this to me?"
"Oppa...." I breathed and laughed sexily.
"Stop it."
"Stop what, Oppa?"
"Stop making me hard."
"Mmmmmm." I bit my lip and began to purposely tease him. "But I'm not doing anything, Daddy."
"Kiss me."
"Make me."
"I can't tonight babe. I have a test in the morning."
I sighed and got silent as my legs clutched together. I tried to stay quiet but some of the moans slipped out. I bit my lip very hard to keep the sound in. My chest heaving but my breaths under control but very hard.
"Mmmm. Baby. Moan for me. Moan for Daddy."
And so I did until I couldn't anymore.

(Flashback over)