Never Forever

We - Her - Me

Outside of school, people think he's ugly and I feel insecure. He knows this..

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▪Hoseok▪

I hadn't seen her look like this is a long time.. All the pictures she's ever sent me, I've kept. Never once had I seen her in person and I must say that in person, it's even harder to control my urges to ravish and touch her when in person. Instantly, I felt the head of my southern hemisphere spring up. Kisses of her Goddiness blessed my eyes for just one moment.

"HOSEOK!" I turned around to be face to face with Mira again.
"We need to talk."
"Okay. What's up?" She smiled.
"Over there.." I pointed to a secluded area in the department store.
"Fine.. And put that away.." I rolled my eyes. Once there, I began my big speech.

"I can't do this anymore."
"Do whay anymore?"
"You know what it is, Mira. The lying, the plan.. This.." I pointed back and forth between me and Mira.
"What do you mean? You can't ruin this!"
"No Mira. I'm done. I'm telling her at the party. This is only torturing and hurting her.." I bit my lip as I frustratingly looked away.

"I see it.." I said.

"I Love Her.. I see the longing in her face when she looks at me. The sadness of being dragged around everywhere. Forced to do all of the things with someone that she feels she can't even do with herself.. Someone who's a traitor for being with the real traitor.. And that person is me.." the tension building up in my body from bottling up my emotions began slowly spilling out. "And I know now that this plan absolutely will not work for me. Or her.. Especially Leona.. She hates liars.. And if I'm just making her hate me, then I'm just slowly ruining my chances of even being with her again.."

"Hoseok, I-."
"No, you don't understand. Please don't even try to relate to me. Just know it's over. At the party, I'm approaching her and I'm getting my girl back."
"Well why don't we just come to a compromise?"
"Huh?"
"Let's just keep this going but-."
"No."
"Let me finish, Hoseok." She threatened before returning her smile. "Let's keep this going but just make her think that this is a one-sided love. She obviously thinks that I'm with you already. But she's never actually seen us together. So, let's just have you pursue her when I'm not around."
"One sided love?"
"Yes.."
"Mira, I don't think s-."
"But listen, Hoseok. Just give it a try. We both get what we both want from this. You have a better chance at getting the girl and I get have something even more special."
"But what about-?"
"Don't you worry about anything. Just do your part and leave it to me."

Before I could protest, Leona walked out the door. I didn't know what to do with myself. She was so beautiful. With a wink, Mira walked over to her.

•Leona•

It took a lot of convincing before I walked out. All I wanted to do was cry. There was my future and what could be been staring right into my eyes. But a liar was what he turned out to be and possibly a cheater..

But this is what I wanted, right?

I'm happy for him, right?

Am I happy?

My eyes landed on my own as I stared into the mirror. First, I had to convince myself that I was okay. Then, I had to convince myself that I would be happy for them..
At least..
On the outside..
And finally, I had to promise myself that I wouldn't cry.

With a sigh, stepping out of the changing room proved to be the hardest thing. My eyes immediately went towards the quietly quarreling couple that I envied. Hoseok was obviously upset but also very obviously hard..

Ugh! Stop it, Leona! He's not yours anymore. You got what you asked for so just just be happy.

But I couldn't be happy..

Especially when the obviously beautiful bride-to-be began to approach me with a smile that tortured my eyes to threaten me with tears. "Leona-!" I immediatwly turned away. I couldn't bare to even look at her right now.
"I need to step out for a moment."
"Well, okay. Well-."
"By myself. I'll be back in a few minutes. I'm sorry." My throat throbbing and I covered my eyes. I had to hurry before the heat came rushing in and the steamed block my eyes from being able to see. I was almost too late when the first raindrop fell. Making a quick cut for the women's restroom, I quickly grabbed some tissue as I began to conjure up lies again.

If anyone asks, I'll just say it's my allergies. They'll believe that, right?

I sighed.

Maybe.. Is it possible? Is Jun really..? Can he read me so clearly? I just don't understand.. I thought that I was doing so good at hiding it.. Why am I so stupid? I could be done better.. I should've never let him see me cry.. or gotten mad when he brought him up.. or even-.

My thoughts stopped as I looked up at the mirror, drying my face. There she was.. Looking dead at me through the mirror.

"I'll be out in a minute. It's just my allergies. I'll be fine."
"Yeah.. I'm sure you will.." There was no smile on her face. Her somber emotions, seemingly, for me showing.

Does she know something?

"I'll be out here waiting for you." She paused at the wall divider. "And just know that if you ever have anything wrong with you or something going on that you can always talk to me about anything. Always." She nodded before walking out.