Never Forever

A Rock

The day of the wedding came sooner than I had anticipated but I was ready for this.

I constantly told myself that I could be happy for him without feeling bad for Mira. I know that he has probably learned from his mistake with me, but my forgiveness can only go so far.. At least he realizes that now..

At least my wish came true..

He has found his happiness..
A happiness.. Without me..

Slipping on my heels, coat and slippers in my coat pocket, Jun and I stepped out. "You look very dapper today."
"It's my brother's wedding today." he grinned.
"Oooh, I totally forgot that was today! What time do you have to be there?"
"In two hours. I'll just drop you off before I go do some last minute stuff for the wedding. Then after the reception, I'll come back to get you."
"How about you just call your brother to come get you and leave me my car?" I grinned.
"Nice try, princess." He said as he started the car. I just smiled to myself. "Punch in the address."

I did just that before zoning out into my own world.

It was a nightmare..

I felt his hands all over me again.. I had experiences this many night before where it felt as if he was with me, grinding on my body. It was pleasurable, but far from desirable.

I was there in no time and was able to quickly shove those horrid thoughts out of my head before quickly hopping out if the car. I was so focused on my thoughts that I hadn't even noticed the potential danger that sat in front of me upon opening the doors to the venue.

It sat in the other room, watching me intensely as I came into the building.

I immediately picked up my duties as the Maid of Honor, making sure that everything was as Mira would want it. Just when I had a moment of peace, a chilling figure appeared before me, alarming me with the touch of his hand on my arm.

My eyes widened at his face. "Leona, may I please talk to you for a second? It's very important."
"Why?" My expression immediately filled with evil. "Why should I have to get up just for you to tell me something? Why can't you just tell me here?"
"Because it's private.." Looking at his sad, yet serious expression for a moment allowed me to read the importance of the matter.
"Fine.." He nodded and walked away. I sighed before switching from my heels to my house shoes and following the path to the room Hoseok was in.

"What do you want, Hoseok?" my arms crossed. I meant business.
"I know you're mad at me for everything but I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry."
"Hoseok, I don't have time for this bullshit. The wedding is in two hours and this is my only break time." I whined.
"I know, I know. I'm sorry. But this just has to be said." He took a step closer to me, causing my gaze to become more intense. "I know you may not want to talk to me, look at me or to ever have anything to do with me, but I just have to get this out my mind.." His eyes zeroed in on mine. "I Love You." My back soon becoming acquainted with the wall, I internally began to panic. "Please.." his hands on either side of me. "Forgive me."

My heart pounding. I was speechless. I was too scared to say anything. I closed my eyes and turned my face away from him, but he just moved it back to look at him. Yet, I still refused to open my eyes. "I Love You.." his lips came dangerously close to mine. "I'm sorry." and then it hit.

The crashing of two worlds in one kiss. My heart feeling as though it might have a heart-attack and die at any moment.

The fear that we might get caught as his hands began to touch all over my body followed by the fear of not knowing how to stop him.

His lips became a cyclone on my body. Sliding his tongue along my neck, he began to squeeze my thighs, pulling them around his waist.

It's happening again..

Panting, I took hold of his jacket as I felt his waves of sexual tension thrust onto me. "Stop." I breathed weakly. "Ho-Hoseok, Stop." I involuntarily moaned. It felt so good but I didn't want this. Not now.
"Shhh. It's okay." he shaking breathed into my ear. "You know you want me." I shook my head.
"Stop. Stop it." my voice becoming smaller and smaller as I felt my tears starting to well up.

"What about Mira?" He stopped all at once. His facial expression still full of desire, but possessed with confusion.
"What?"
"How can you be with me when you're about to marry Mira?"
"Marry her?! She didn't tell you?!" His face livid, yet solid.
"Hoseok, stop yelling at me!"
"Leona, baby. Please listen to me. Mira and I were never getting married." he said, getting down on one knee in frustration.
"Huh?"
"Mira lied to you."
"What?"
"Mira's not my fiancé." Pulling out a familiar box from his pocket, he said, "You are." I shook my head in disbelief.

What did I just hear?

"I promise that I'll never hurt you again. If you marry me, I promise I'll be the best husband to you. I promise I'll never let go of you, baby." My hands feeling around for a way out as I shook my head.
"No." I quickly tried to open the door but he grabbed me and held me close to him.

"I do not like the color of rejection. Nor do I like the color of sadness. But what I refuse to do is find a compromise between them. Purple is not a color I want to wear if it is my loneliness covering anger." he sighed. "Leona, I Love you. I've been waiting all these years just to marry you. Please say you will. I promise, I'll take good care of you." he said, holding me like a fragile rose about to break.

And that's how I felt..

Like a rose with no more thorns..
Snapped in two..

About to break..