Clace (Liberty High School) (Completed)

24. The Talk

Jace

Like I said, whatever makes you most comfortable," I confirm. I really want to see how her lips feel, but I can't! Stop it! You're just hugging. She felt bad, so she hugged you. You can't make her feel uncomfortable, remember, you just said that! As I mentally scold myself, I notice Red lean closer to me. In an attempt to comfort her, I lean in too, so she can rest her forehead against mine. Only, her head tilts up and I feel something on my lips. She's kissing me! Angel Red is kissing me! I suddenly become aware that I'm kissing her too. It's like my body took over and I'm trying to catch up. I slide my hand on her back, and I can feel her body shuddering. Maybe you should slow it down Jace! I decide to break the kiss and Red looks at me with question. "D..did I do something wrong?" Red asks.

"Are you kidding me? That was amazing. I just didn't want to go to fast," I breathlessly explain and rest my forehead on hers. "Plus, we had to breathe eventually." I smile.

"Yeah, I guess breathing is important," Red jokes. "I'm glad you liked it."

"Did you Red?" I question. "Did you like the kiss?"

"I've...never really kissed anyone before. I mean...my...dad, he used to....I don't....think....and..Sebastian and Jonathan...they were....I don't think...-" Red stutters quietly.

"No, I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking! I can be such a stupid idiot sometimes. Please don't compare me to them. If it brings up bad memories, we don't need to kiss. I'd be perfectly happy just to see and talk to you," I decide. Wow Jace! Are you sure?

"It doesn't bring up bad memories. I absolutely loved our first kiss! I wasn't comparing you. Those were the only other instances when my lips were with someone else's." I'm glad she didn't call them kisses. "I've never willingly kissed anyone before....until now, and I don't count what happened in the bathroom as a kiss, since someone chickened out," Red laughs.

"Ouch Red! I didn't chicken out!" I mock whine. Did I? No, I thought I was hurting her and I wanted to stop.

"Whatever you say," Red whispers in my ear. I can't stop from a sigh from escaping. "Wow Jace, I didn't realize I had that much of an effect in you."

"I'm sorry, that was uncalled for. Usually, I can control myself," I confess.

"Maybe I don't want you to," Red teases.

"What do you want then Red?" I sensually whisper in her ear.

"Maybe some less talking and some more of this," Red replies as she pulls my lips onto hers. Her warm bitten lips caress mine and I stop my lips from playing with hers. Baby steps Jace! Baby steps!

I break our kiss, "Red, I want you to take control," I nervously breathlessly manage. "We can do whatever you want."

"Jace....I want to kiss you," Red whispers. "I want you to want to kiss me." I can see the embarrassment as her cheeks radiate heat.

"Red, what I want isn't something you should be worried about. Just be honest with me. Just tell me what you want to do and I'll do it," I explain.

"Ugh Jace, what do you want to do?" Red asks again.

"What I want to do isn't important now," I try.

"Please just tell me," Red cries.

"Fine, but I don't want you to feel pressured or uncomfortable, promise," I concede.

"I promise, now tell me," Red replies.

"I want to kiss you while picking you up and taking you to the bed. I want to gently lay you down, hover over you, and make out with you, so you forget every negative experience you've ever had, for as long as I can. I want you to be happy and not worry about anything," I confess. "Of course, we'd be fully clothed. What do you want?"

Red laughs. Wait, she's laughing! Why is she laughing? "I want you to know how much I want that too, but I'm scared. What if I'm not good at that? What if I can't forget? I don't want to hurt you if my damagedness (Author's Note: I'm not sure if that's a word but.....) messes it up. You shouldn't have to deal with it. Of course I want you but....I'm not good enough. I have to think of you first. I can't be selfish," Red explains.

"Red, you're not selfish!" I yell. "You're the most selfless person I know. It's part of the reason I like you so much. You're different, and you're special in every way. It doesn't matter to me if you're good at it. As long as we're doing it together, it'll be perfect. I don't expect you to magically forget.   You pressed and pressed, so I told you what I wanted. It doesn't mean that those are the terms of our relationship."

"Okay....Jace I want to try," Red whispers. Oh, great! I've lost it now! There's no way she just said that to me. "Jace...did you hear me? I said I want to try!" Red pulls me from my thoughts. I smile like a complete idiot. Gently, my hand reaches Red's cheek and I carefully push my lips against hers. I look at her and she nods, giving me the okay to pick her up. I wrap her legs around my waste and her arms entangle themselves around my neck. Slowly, I walk to the bed. I again ask and she nods in approval. My hands support her back while I lay her down carefully. As I hover over her, our lips reconnect. I want to take it slow, so I wait for her to explore my mouth before I explore hers.

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I do not own any of the Mortal Instruments books, materials, etc. All credit belongs to Cassandra Clare.

Author's Note:
This is my first fanfic. I hope you guys like it! Please leave comments, votes, and feedback. I'm going to update, when I'm done and it'll be random.

Originally posted: 1/20/18