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Chapter 20 ~ Erik route 6 ~ My love for you

((This chapter contains themes not suitable for very young readers. Then again it is a fanfiction of an Otome game that is about frikking Incubi whom are demons of sex. Still, figured to put it up here. Hope you all enjoy.))

I left the dining room closing the door behind me. I could still hear Waltz' voice saying that I was mean but after hearing that I rushed to my room where I closed the door behind me. Next I rushed to the balcony doors, opened them and stepped into the pouring rain.

The cold rain felt like a blessing. My heart was hurting yet I also felt numb. I had betrayed them. My friends whom I had pretty much seen as family. I put Waltz, Azaeur and the boys.in danger. They got hurt because of me and for what. A reward from the Demonlord? And even though all of that happened they were so kind to me. Something I did not deserve at all no matter what Azaeur said about me being a victim too. I was weak and they paid for it.

'So once we are all free let's go home alright?'

Again Erik's words echoed through my head. Home. How long and how much have I wanted one. I felt fearful when the thought of facing them again rose in my mind. I could not face them anymore, especially Erik. The image of him and his brothers hurt and imprisoned was imprinted in my head mixed with my memories of him. From both the Demon world were he spoke to me about his troubles and helped me whenever I needed it, and Human world. The times we laughed and the times where he was there for me unlike anyone else. Playing the piano together, him showing me his favourite movies, his commentary that always made me flush with embarrassment. When being with him it felt as if I was soaring through the universe. I loved him deeply and when he was not with me I could feel my heart ache. Now however it felt like it was on the verge of being torn apart. I did not deserve him one bit. Not after this. ''I want nothing for myself. I just want them to be safe. I want him to be safe so therefore I can't love him... ''

It was not fair, but all I would do was cause misfortune. A home and a family, it was just not meant for me. I wonder if I had come up with that myself or that someone once told me that. Oh right. I chuckled. Erik had not been the first person I had had cared for in this manner. I used to be different, had friends and lived with a family before a very long time ago, certainly a millenia at least. There was one who I liked more than the rest. Nivallas was his name. He was kind to me until he found out what I truly was and attacked me instead. Blaming me for the misfortune he had encountered regarding a plague that made him lose much of friends and family. Convinced I kept him alive because I cared for him the most. He was angry that I did not save the others. It was a memory I had suppressed and never thought off again. Not consciously anyway so why did it resurface now? Nivallas told me I was an abomination that was not meant to exist and that I would do everyone a favor by dying. Nivallas... ever since that happened I had not grown close to anyone anymore until I met the incubi brothers and had started to believe his words. Was he right I wonder? I had killed Nivallas with my own hands when he was about to kill me and I never wanted to get close to anyone ever again. It seemed though I failed in doing that.

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''Will she be okay?'' Mika asked. With me gone Damien simply shook his head. ''It might be a good idea if someone checks up on her soon. But she needed time for herself as well. Telling this took a lot from her.'' ''I will go to her in a moment.'' Erik replied and looked at Waltz. ''Anything you can or want to share?'' he asked.

''I suppose I must.'' Waltz replied with a sigh. ''What would you like to know. I only am going to answer things related to [_2_]. One question about me and you can forget me ever answering anything ever again understood?'' he looked at everyone who nodded in understanding. ''I have a question for you.'' Sam said, his voice slightly annoyed. ''If she is so damn powerful why not escape the dungeon after sending us off all those years ago. Or escape sooner.'' he crossed his arms looking at Waltz. ''If she was only an Angel or a Demon it would be easier. For example if she were to replenish her sexual energy, it has to be done out of the purity of love and not lust. If she were to say act sinful she will not get any energy at all making it very difficult for her to recharge energy that she can use for her Demon Magic. Not to mention I understood that she found it more important to give energy to someone else.'' his eyes went to Damien for a moment but it was hard to say if he was disappointed or not by what [_2_] had decided to do. ''Another thing, she did fight the Demonlord using Demon magic. If she were to use Holy magic or Angel magic with the energy she had left and fail, the Demonlord would have known for sure what she was.''