The Bulletproof Fan (Forever) Series II

Bulletproof 62

Nagising ako ng makarandam ng malamig na hangin. Binuksan ko ang mga mata at nakita ang isang madalim na silid. Ang tanging ilaw lamang ay yung nasa labas. Napahawak ako sa ulo.

"So I did came home...."

Napatingin ako sa kamay ko na may bandage at sumimangot.

"Wounded."

Napatingin ako sa pintuan ng maramdaman ko ang ihip ng hangin. Nagulo ang buhok ko ng umihip ito. Tumayo ako at lumapit sa pintuan ng aking beranda. I smiled when I saw the stars and the moon.

"Atleast I still saw you."

The stars and moon stays there wherever your sad or happy. I go out and stays in the balcony. When I touch the balustrade the coldness of the cement burn into my hand.

"Why do I always remember Bangtan if I saw this?"

Napatawa ako. Baliw na talaga ako. Huminga ako ng malalim. Naalala ko noon tuwing tumitingin ako sa langit the stars are ARMYs and the Moon are Bangtan. Napatawa ako.

"Bangtan is the moon because they stays there. Even when the rain make the stars Invinsible the moon still light us up in the dark. They will wait until the stars came back."

Parang ang Bangtan at ARMYs lang. Even though there are millions of us just like the stars to light them up nangingibabaw pa rin ang ilaw nila. The moon's light are brighter than the stars. Ganun ang epekto nila sa akin noon. We somehow become their light but Bangtan become OUR light. But now I think I should stay like this.

"Share your light to the people that deserve it. Not someone like me."

Tumalikod ako at naglakad papasok sa silid ko. Lumabas ako ng room ko. Bababa na sana ako sa hagdanan ng napahinto ako ng marinig ko ang kapatid kong magsalita.

"It was all my fault. I'm sorry."

Tumingin ako sa baba. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko ng makita ang Bangtan. What are they doing here?! Napakagat ako ng labi.

"She went to Korea to avoid handling the company. She doesn't like the idea of handling thousands of people under her. She sometimes suffers in an anxiety just by thinking about it when she was studying."

My brother was looking straight to Yoongi. Why are you telling this to them! Stop! Gusto ko itong isigaw pero hindi ko magawa. Nanigas ang katawan ko na tela hindi na ako makagalaw. Bumilis ang paghinga. The fact Bangtan are hearing this make me tremble! I don't want them to hear this! Why are you telling this to them?!

"I convinced her to go home but she refused. She wanted to see each of you so I let her be for a few months because that's what make her happy. She didn't know about our father's sickness. Our father refused to let her know. He even decided to forget about the company and let Lily go. It was me who convince her to go home and let her know about father."

I saw my brother touched his forehead. He was in pain saying all of this. Is he blaming his self for a few years?! I didn't know that or I refused to see his pain. Am I being selfish again?

"It was too late when we came home. Our family treated her bad after what happened. She was crying everyday blaming herself. She did harm herself a lot of times and thought I lost her."

He stopped speaking for a moment. Ni isa sa kanila walang nagsalita. Napaiyak ako. Why are you telling this to them? I don't understand!

"I can't bare seeing her like that so I asked for help. We have to monitor her for months to avoid harm."

Gusto kong sumigaw. Stop!

"Stop."

Napaiyak ako habang sinabi yun.