Zipper Mo Bukas (Completed)

Special Chapter

Special Chapter ~

Neko's note: maybe you're interested why Sui acts like that. I made this chapter because I think you guys might want to know the story behind her attitude 😄😅 don't hate her that much (=´ᴥ')

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Nagulat kami nung umuwi 'yung dalawa, their arms are linked and they're laughing. Sa sobrang weird nun e umakyat na lang ako sa kwarto ko. At natulog...

Sinubukang matulog, I mean.

Pero hindi ako makatulog. Keanu keeps on bugging me. I mean his conscience.

Bakit nasa utak kita ngayon? I hate you!

Bakit bigla na lang s'yang hindi namansin? Nakaka-bother. Lumabas na lang ulit ako kahit anong oras na. Tatambay na lang ulit ako sa garden.

Umaasa kasi ako na baka magkita kami.

Dala ko ang earphone ko at ang phone ko, tumambay ako sa garden. Naglilinis ng gago sa friendlist. Bakit ba kasi may mga jeje at ano rito?

Tumutugtog ang Break Your Little Heart ng All Time Low. Since 'di ko pa alam... nakikinig lang ako.

Biglang may humigit sa earphone ko. S'ya na ba 'to?

"You're a fan now?"

Nagha-hum pala ako nang di ko napapansin.

Si Sui pala. 'Di na ako sumagot. I dunno pero her presence makes me nervous. Umupo s'ya sa tabi ko. Tae naman.

"Are you scared?"
"Pano mo nalaman?"
"I can smell your fear. My demons inside me eat it."

Naramdaman ko ang goosebumps ko. The fuck.

"Kidding," she smiled. Nawawala yung mata n'ya. Cute.
"Bakit gan'yan ka?"
"Hmm.. Alam mo bang third year college na ako?"

Na-shock ako. She said she's just 17.

"You must be surprised. Yeah.. Maaga akong nag-aral. And that's why I'm pressured."

'Di ako umimik. Hinahayaan ko lang s'ya.

"I'm the black sheep of our family. My sisters are straight As student and I'm just a potato. I even got a failing grade. My mom is disappointed. I don't know. It's just me. My mom said that she knows that I'm intelligent but I'm just a lazy lad," she laughed, "my teacher keeps on comparing us. It hurts." She laughed again. "This world is really cruel."

Hindi ako makapagsalita... hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko.

"One time pa nga..." I heard her sobbing, "pinahiya n'ya ako sa mga kaibigan ko. Na pinapalabas n'ya na pabigat ako. Patapon. Bobo. Nag-walkout ako. 'Di ko kinaya eh." She's smiling but I can still hear her sobs. "One of my friends said na pinagtanggol n'ya ako. Na lahat ng teachers natutuwa sa'kin... pero my mom just stormed out from the room without saying a word."

I don't know why she's sharing it to me... pero dama ko yung sakit.

"I graduated at the age of 14. But no. She's not proud cause I didn't graduate from the section A. I feel like she's ignoring me. She almost forgot my own graduation. She doesn't know what kind of pressure I'm feeling." She's now sobbing heavily.

"Zia... sorry ha? Ngayon ko lang ilalabas 'to. Even Keanu doesn't know what I feel."
"Tuloy," I smiled.
"I entered college at the age of 15. achievement? Ewan. Pero hindi ko pa rin feel ang college. Lalong nalayo 'yung loob ko kila mama. I'm always at my room typing, watching, and doing everything nothing important. My siblings are close to her but not me. Then one time comes... nagkaron ng takutan sa amin. I hate ghosts. I cried at our school. My classmate keeps on saying that someone's on my back.. And other's say that too. I said stop but that brainless bitch keeps on insisting it. I dunno what happened... I cried."

Hindi pa rin ako umiimik.

"My travel time from school to home is 2hours. My class that time ends at 9:00pm. So I got home at 11. Nagtext ako kay mama na sunduin ako.. Kasi I am really scared. May mga gangster. Nagalit s'ya. Naiintindihan ko."

Tumawa na naman s'ya.

"She got angry. Big time! And I dunno what happened again but I started laughing while crying. I almost killed myself that night. I said I was depressed pero sabi n'ya kaartehan ko lang 'yun. She didn't even care," she laughed again. Pero hindi masaya. Pilit na tawa.

"I said nape-pressure ako pero wala raw s'yang pake. It hurts. Kinabukasan nun, my sister said that she thought I was gone crazy. I'm laughing, crying, and blurting things out. She even asked me if I want to go to psychiatrist. I said yes. She asked me if I was okay. I said no. I want to hang myself. Nagalit s'ya sa'kin. Na ang immature ko na she thought I hate dramas but why am I making one daw. It's just they don't know what I feel. What I am keeping inside me. That time... I really thought that my life is pointless meaningless. I didn't eat for a day. I can't even stand nor walk. I didn't talk to anyone. Just holding my phone and crying all day. Clutching it and listening to music. That's why I treasure the bands I love, they helped me."

Till now I don't know what to say. I just let her continue.

"Iniisip ko nang maglaslas nun. I don't want to talk to anyone cause it really hurts. I really thought na my mom would comfort me and tell that it's okay. But no. she doesn't care. It took a lot of courage to say things like that but she doesn't care."

Napayuko s'ya..

"They thought na I am happy.. No. I'm just pretending it. Wala ngang nakakaalam na I'm not okay eh. Or they simply don't care."

She sighed.

"Ewan ko. Baliw na yata ako. My mood keeps on changing instantly. 'Di ko mapigilan. Tapos mabilis na akong mainis sa kabobohan ng mga tao."

That's why..

"Kahit anong pigil ko... wala eh. Hirap din ako mag-open up sa mga tao kahit na gusto ko. Hays."

Natawa ako.

"Thank you," Sui smiled. A sincere one.
"Nahh.. Bakit sa'kin?"
"Ewan ko. I have this urge to say things to you. I mean those nasty things. Please. Walang makakalabas ha? Pag nalaman nila ipupukpok ko ang ulo mo sa pader."
"Promise." I smiled back.
"But still, akin lang si Keanu." Tumatawa n'yang sabi pero halata namang galing sya sa iyak—at malamang iiyak na naman s'ya mamaya.
"I'm always here," I blurted out.

Tinitigan n'ya lang ako saka kinunutan ako ng noo.

"Eew, stop being like that," sabi n'ya saka tumayo. "Kinikilabutan ako sayo. Pasok na nga ako. Tatabihan ko pa si Keanu."

Pero 'di n'ya alam nakita ko s'yang nakangiti.

"Goodnight Sui!"
"Che!"

Napangiti na lang din ako. Everyone has their own reason. I can't blame her.

Pumasok na rin ako sa loob saka sinubukang matulog.