Falling From It Again

Seventeen

CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW

I just shook off everything that Shemar said because honestly, it made me upset. Yeah..we did some things but why continue to bring it up? Plus, I'm married and he's getting married- the touching has to be limited now. He needs to understand that.

I picked up Ciyle and then came back home. I was tired.

SKIP SKIP- two nights later:

"You're hilarious." Tony said to Shemar after he finished telling Tony, Lorah and I a story about how he got kicked off of a show. I just sat there and smiled. I didn't want to but...Tony invited them over for some random reason. Tony and I are in a better place though- we argue but we always make up really, really good. If you know what I mean...

"Why you so silent, babe?" Tony said as he touched my leg. I shook my head.

"Just kinda tired. Definitely a hilarious story though Shemar." I said as I smiled over towards him. He knew that I was still kinda upset about what he brought up a few days ago.

"Thanks. Anyways, this woman right here..." He said as he slowly gave Lorah a kiss on the lips. He smiled and pulled her a little closer. I watched his hands as he touched her. "Is the best. She finally knows what she wants the wedding to be like." Shemar said as he gave her another kiss. How many kisses are needed?

"Congratulations." Tony said as he smiled over at them. "You guys going anywhere special for your honeymoon?" He added.

"Uhm...whatever the bride wants...she gets. It's my woman's choice." Shemar said as he touched Lorah's thigh and gently squeezed it.

"Aww, I'm so excited baby. You're so sweet." Lorah said as she touched his face and gave him another kiss. Deeper this time.

I  watched as their lips touched each other and suddenly remembered how he used to kiss me the same way. I've gotta stop this....I have a husband.

"Well, I'll be back. I've gotta get something to drink. Hopefully that'll keep me awake." I said as I stood up and lightly laughed. "I'll be back." I said as I left. Shemar and Lorah looked at me. As well as Tony.

I sighed and walked into the kitchen to pour me a glass of wine. I really do need to cut back on it but...I need this. Besides, it's my first drink today. I took a sip, closed my eyes and remained calm. I hope that my feelings for him aren't coming back because we have boundaries. HUGE boundaries.

I just couldn't stop replaying how he touched her. How he kissed her...damn. Stop it, Cheryl. Just stop it. You have a good man whom loves and cares for you. A man who's a good Father.....well....- I mean, he is a good Father. I just didn't like what he did to Cai. Either way- MY man is a good man. He loves me and nobody is better than he is.

I thought about that and smiled to myself. I shrugged my shoulders and then took another sip of my wine.

"You still mad at me?" Shemar said as he walked in. I looked at him and then looked down at my wine glass.

"I think that you should go back in there with your wife to be...don't you think?" I said as I pushed away my wine glass.

"I saw how your were looking at us." He told me. I stopped and looked at him.

"Huh?"

"Never mind. Anyways, Lorah wants a glass of wine. Could you..." He asked me as he pointed at the bottle of wine.

"Oh, yeah." I said as I turned around to grab a wine glass. I could feel his eyes watching my every single move. I grabbed the wine glass quickly and rinsed it out. "Would you like some?" I asked him as I slowly started to pour the wine in Lorah's glass.

SHEMAR'S POINT OF VIEW

I watched her pour the wine and tried my best to hold back a smile. Any and everything that she does is...perfect. I've gotta keep my feelings in check. Little does she know...she's on my mind all the time and that's why I make things up just to be around her.

"Yes, please." I said as I went to go stand next to her. I examined her. She seemed nervous that I was so close to her.

"Got yah." She said as she turned around to grab another wine glass. I turned my head because I can never control my eyes when i'm around this woman.

"I apologize, best friend. I was wrong." I told her as I took a sip of her wine.

"Dont worry about it. You know that I can never stay mad at yo-..." She said as she turned around and stopped talking. "Why are you drinking MY wine?" She said as she sat down the extra wine glass and reached for hers that was in my hands. I moved it away from her and put it far behind me.

"Stop!" She said as she got close to my chest and reached behind me. I had it far away from her...she was too short to reach it anyways.

"Look at me." I told her as I looked down at her. She stopped reaching and stopped to look up at me. She was only a few inches away from my face. She looked me in my eyes and immediately my heart smiled and started to beat really fast.

Her eyes were so beautiful and they were glistening so softly. "What?" She said as she stepped back from my chest. I put the wine glass down and pulled her back into my chest and before I could realize it- she looked at my lips. That's all I needed to see- was that she wanted me, and she does. She doesn't have to tell me anyways, her body language tells me and her tone does too. I know this woman from head to toe- literally.

Next, she softly pushed away from my chest and looked away from me. Little did I know- I wanted her too.

"I only did that to make you upset." I finally admitted. "I knew that you were looking at me while I was kissing and touching on her. I might as well go ahead and admit it, baby girl." I told her. She looked away from me and didn't look at me in my eyes not once. "Also, all those times you came over my house....I made Lorah go to the store because I wanted to spend some time with you all by myself." I told her. My heart started to beat really fast because I finally told her but I didn't know how she was gonna react. "Lorah didn't want to move here...I did. I wanted to see you again and I had to make something up for her to come here with me. All of these years I couldn't keep my mind off of you, Cheryl Ann." I told her.

"Well, you're gonna need to stop because we can't do what we did all over again. I can't Shemar." She told me as she finally looked me in my eyes. My heart broke.

"I know....I do.." I said as I looked down and played with my hands. "But..." I said as I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards me. "Tell me that you don't think about it every now and then, huh? Tell me that you don't think about my kisses and the way my hands touched your body?" I said as I grabbed her waist. She looked me in my eyes while I licked my lips. "Hm?" I asked her as I then reached up to move her hair out of her face and smiled at her. "You're so beautiful."

"I-..." she said but I could see that she was hesitating to continue.

"Don't you miss my tongue against your body, baby?" I asked her as I touched her chin. "Tasting you? Spinning you around and grippin' your as-...." I said but she cut me off.

"Nope! I don't think about it at all." She said as she moved away from me.

The lies she spoke.

She rushed to walk out of the kitchen.

At least I told her.

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