Falling From It Again

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CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW

"He didn't catch me the other day, did he?" Shemar asked me as he came by to visit me at home after Tony left for work. I just took the kids to school and now, Shemar and I could get some time alone.

"No, he didn't catch you. He almost caught me though." I said as Shemar helped me fold some laundry in the living room.

"Why do you say that?" He asked me.

"Because, every time He asks me questions....I get nervous." I said as I looked at him.

"Don't be nervous. We love each other and that's okay." Shemar then said.

My facial expression kinda changed a little bit.

"Shemar, sometime I feel like...we're getting too comfortable with this. I mean, what we did the other day and how we continue to take risks...it's getting scary that we've come this far. Now, we have a baby and-...I'm married." I told him.

"Yeah, we do have a baby. Cheryl, I've risked it all for you, baby. You act like I won't take care of you....why is that?"

"Because sometimes I just sit and...think about how wrong this...is."

"My Love for you isn't wrong and this baby? Our....baby? Isn't wrong either. In my eyes....you and I should have been together."

"In my eyes too. However, it didn't happen that way. I just feel...dirty. I do love you but this isn't sitting right with my soul at all. I feel like Im going to hell, especially after what we did the other day WHILE my husband was basically right there." I told him as I sat down and threw the clothes back into the hamper.

"Yeah but you let me in." He said as he smirked to himself.

"Shemar, you let yourself in, Okay? You just walked straight through the damn door. You didn't give one about who saw you. You didn't care of Cai or Ciyle saw or heard anything at all- you just wanted me." I said as I looked at him.

"Yep and whenever I want you? I can have you. You specifically told me the other day that you were mines and not his, right?" He asked me.

"Yeah but it's not like I had a choice." I said as I tried not to smile.

"You didn't Because I was in control. Anyways, what the hell are we gonna do?" Shemar asked me.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean...when are we gonna tell him."

"I don't want to tell him."

"Why not, Cheryl?"

"Be-fucking-cause I'm scared as hell. Tony is gonna turn into an entirely different man after I tell him what I've been doing. He forgave me once but this? He will never forgive me. Not at all. Especially after he figures out that this baby isn't even his, Shemar." I told him.