Falling From It Again

Forty 6

CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW

I sat there and saw that the second test came back as positive as well.

I placed my hand over my mouth and just became numb all over.

"Congratulations. I bet that Mr. Grant will be very, very happy to hear the news." She told me. "Now, we need to start thinking about nutrition and prenatal vitamins..." She said as she started to hand me some papers about babies. I zoned out and didn't even hear a thing that she said...

I felt like everything in the entire world stopped and I was the only person there.

"Cheryl..." She said as she looked at me with concern. I continued to zone out.
"Cheryl, I-...can you answer my question, please?" She said as she then came over towards me and touched my arm.

"Huh?" I said as I jumped out of it and looked at her.

"How many children do you have? If any." She repeated.

"Two." I said as I looked at her.

"Okay, you okay?"

"Yeah." I said as I faked a smile and nodded my head.

Was this really happening...to me? How am I gonna tell Shemar? Better yet, how am I gonna tell Tony? My ass is deep in it and I don't even now how imma claw my way out of this hole. Tony will never forgive me for this. I know it because I know him too well.
Thinking about this made me sick as fuck.

I couldn't tell either one of them just yet though. I needed to find the words to say because right now- I was speechless.

I looked down and touched my stomach.

I'm actually pregnant...

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When I made it home, I went straight to Tony and I's room and got in the shower. I didn't say hi to anybody- I couldn't after the news that I had just received.

I slid down against the shower wall and brought my knees up towards my face.

I just cried.

I was weak about all that I had to go through and that my marriage might just be over with.
It's my fault, I messed it up. I let my feelings get into the way and it broke what God brought together. I broke it.

I heard Tony knock on the bathroom door.

"Baby, you good?" He asked me.

I stood up and started to lather the soap up.

"Yeah, I'm good." I said as I lightly touched my red shot eyes.

"Okay." He said as he then left.

How am I gonna tell him?

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3:20 a.m