Falling From It Again

Thirty 9

SHEMAR's POINT OF VIEW

I did this for her. To make her happy and to get her back. I hope it works.

I started to walk towards Cheryl's office, took a deep breath and hid the flowers behind my back.

I then knocked on her office door and then heard her say "Come in." In her sweet voice.

Once I walked in and closed the door behind me, she looked at me and rolled her eyes.

"Why are you here?" She asked me in an annoyed tone.

"Bab-..." I said but she cut me off.

"DONT....call me that." She said in a rush.

"Okay, well- Cheryl Ann...let me talk to you." I said as I pulled the flowers from behind my back and softly laid them on her desk. She looked at the flowers, sighed, picked them up and put them to the side.

"Thanks..." She said in a dry voice.

This was hurting me. I can't believe that I did something that she didn't want me to do- I never have until now.

"I love you so, so much. No words can explain it, baby gurl. I know that Ive hurt you because I told you that I wouldn't even touch that girl, yet- I did. I expected you to stop kissing and touching on Tony- yet, I was-....I-...you know what I did. However, I shouldn't have and that's the point that I'm trying to make. I never should have touched her and I never should have acted when I knew for a damn fact that you were standing RIGHT there. I disrespected you, Cheryl Ann. And listen here, baby...." I said as I went over towards her and squatted down next to her chair behind her desk. I took her hand into mines.

"I'll never do it again. It didn't mean ANYTHING! Baby, you've gotta believe me. How long have you known me? When I say something, I mean it, Cheryl. I mean it with all my heart...the kiss meant nothing. The sex meant nothing. It was JUST sex. That's all, baby. With you- I make love because I love you. I don't do that with anybody else." I told her. She looked at me and then slowly pulled her hand out of my hand. She stood up, started crying and walked away.

"I trusted you and what you said but why would you do this to me? Do you know what I'm sacrificing for you? My whole damn marriage. A good one at that but I-...you..." She said as she continued to cry. I stood up and went to go stand In front of her.

I then looked down at her wedding ring that was fitting perfectly on her finger and I instantly got upset. However, I took a deep breath and just continued...

The ring wasn't the point right now.

"I know this...I just-....I love you, Cheryl Ann." I said as I put my hands in my pockets. "Remember what I said back then? Hm? Think about it. Just think back to it...." I told her. I knew that she'd remember because how could she forget?

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(All flashbacks are underlined)

"Let me tell you something, Cheryl. Always believe what I say, okay? Why? Because I'd never lie to you, you hear me?" I told Cheryl as I picked her up from her house and started to drive the both of us to school.

Senior year.

"Why did you say that?" She asked me as she placed her backpack between her legs.

"Because I will always tell you the truth. Especially since you're my best friend...I'd never lie to you." I told her. "Remember that, Okay?" I said to her.

She nodded her head and smiled at me. "Same here." She said.

"Good." I said as I continued to keep my eyes on the road.

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I could see that she was thinking about that moment.

"Now, what did I say that day?" I asked her. She stood there and just wiped her face with her hands. I hated it when she cried, I'd hold her and help her feel better....only if she'd let me.

"That you'd never lie to me." She said as she looked over at me.

"So, why would I start now? How many years has it been? From when we were young to now....I'd never, Cheryl. It meant nothing." I repeated. I then went over to grab her hand and surprisingly, she didn't pull back.

"I've been making you cry more than smiling lately and I apologize about that. From now on, I'll do better but you've gotta forgive me and give me another chance." I said as I softly rubbed my thumb against her chin. I then kissed her forehead. "I don't wanna hurt you anymore. However, I'm not perfect baby. I should have told her no but she was asking me questions about why I haven't touched her in so long." I said as I licked my lips and closed my eyes.

I didn't know what to say to her to make it all better. I felt like I was loosing her even more each second. I hated this...I hated what I've done.

"I forgive you." She finally said. I looked at her.

"You do?" I asked her.

"Yes." She said as the tears continued to flow.

"Then-...then why are you crying like that, baby?" I asked her.

"Because I'm done, Shemar. I'm done with all of this. No more, Okay? That was the last straw...and that shit really hurt. If that were Tony asking me questions, I wouldn't fuck him to shut him up! Please....just leave." She said as she pointed towards the door.

"Baby...." I said as I watched her close her eyes and cry even more. She continued to point. "Cheryl....I'm sorry. I-...I don't know what to say to make it better! I'm not gonna let you go just this easily. Don't do this to me." I said as my voice started to cry.

"Baby, WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO?!" I slightly yelled at her and held my arms out.

"ANYTHING OTHER THAN THAT! Now, Leave." She said as she wiped her eyes and looked up at me with her red eyes that came about from crying.

"I messed up, Cheryl Ann but you have to believe me, baby. Believe that I messed up but I love you too. If I could go back in time and do it right, I would. I-..." I said but she walked over towards me, pulled my arm and dragged me over towards the door.

"You should have thought about that before you had sex with her. Goodbye." She told me in an upset voice.

I stood there and looked at her. I then slowly nodded my head and walked out of her office.

I had to respect her wishes and leave.

CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW

Seeing him made me sick to my stomach. I hated this. I love him so, so much but I had to.

I felt disgusted that he did what he did.

I touched my stomach and closed my eyes. I then went over towards my desk and took a sip of my water to calm myself down.

Can't wait until I can finally feel better.

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