Falling From It Again

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CAI's POINT OF VIEW

"I'm here because I wanted to talk to you. May you please join me in the House?" She asked me. I looked at her and then slightly nodded my head.

I still love my Mom but I'm still beyond pissed off.

As we made our way into the house, we both sat down next to each other. We looked on stage and saw many people rehearsing their lines and the lights were changing. We had to get the scenery just right and lights are always a huge part of it.

"So, this is what you've been up to?" Ma said as she looked around the theatre.

"Yeah. It's what you and Daddy wanted, right?" I asked her.

She looked at me and then sighed.

"No, Caiya. I've always wanted you to do whatever it is that you've wanted to do. You've been painting ever since you were 3 but your Father and I knew that you had more than just that one talent. Acting is in you, Cai. Like, those times when you were...I think it was 7. You used to put on this little painting outfit and you and Bre used to act as if you were professional painters. You two made it very comical and Bre even did some...crazy things but even then, you took a bow at the end. You've always had it in you....we just wanted to see if it would find it's way to the light for you." She told me as she lightly smiled.

I looked down at my hands as they rested in my lap and started to play with them.

I slightly laughed. "Yeah, I remember that. Bre and I did many things when we were younger." I said as I smiled to myself. "She was basically my first best friend." I added.

"Yeah. She was." Ma said as she too nodded her head to agree with what I had said. "Cai, I wanted to admit something to you." She then added.

"What's that?"

"You're right. I have been in love with Shemar but I promise you that I love your Father more. Years ago him and I kinda crossed some boundaries but once he came back- those feelings came back up. I know that you're a smart girl and I wanted you to also know is that what I'm doing is wrong. That's the thing...when you love somebody, it's hard to stop loving them even though it's the wrong thing to do."

"Ma, the reason as to why I wanted you to tell me the truth is because I'm an understanding person. I mean, Dad won't like it but lying on me is what hurt my feelings the most. It really did and I'm sorry but I can't forget what you've done. You're wrong for what you're doing and I want you to tell him. Tell him the truth. Do the right thing." I told her.

"Cai, I can't do that." She said as she shook her head.

"Really?"

"Yes, I can't."

"And this is why you've lost me. If you don't tell him the truth, I will. I will make him and you pay attention in my own way. You caused this."

"Caused what?" She asked.

"You'll see. It's all your fault. You just lost a daughter." I said as I stood up and walked away.