SM Imagines

Journal

Shawn ( this is v long)
She sat in the studio floor writing away on her notepad, her face filled with concentration as she wrote her thoughts. She had her ear phones in so she couldn't hear what any of us in the room we're saying and she remained quiet letting me put '100% effort in to my work' as she said.

Her toned legs are stretched out and are visible due to the black shorts she's wearing and her book lays on her lap as she writes with the sleeves of her white top rolled up. Her hair kept getting in the way so she puts her pen in her mouth and gathers her hair looking up and she notices me staring at her and she shoots me a smile and carries on writing.

"Hey Shawn are you just gonna start at y/n all day or you gonna listen to us" Ryan says whilst clicking his fingers in front of me snapping me out of my stare. "Oh yeah sorry what were you saying?" I say and look at confused at everyone. "Let's just take a break yeah" and everyone goes of to sit down and go on there phones and grab a drink.

I grab a beer and go sit on the sofa where y/n is leaning against and she still focuses on her page. "Hey what are you writing?" I ask and she doesn't respond "y/n, hey" I call again and instead she begins humming a familiar tune then stops.

I sit beside her and tap her shoulder and she looks up seeing it's me and removes her ear phones "Hey what are you doing?" She asks and puts her book and pen to the side.
"We're just taking a break and I called you like twice what where you listening too it sounded familiar" I ask and take a sip from the bottle.

"Oh erm I was actually listening to bad reputation live" she laughs nervously and I laugh at her response "Shawn you can't deny its sounds the best live" she states.
"You're so cute" I say and pinch her cheek teasing her. "Yeah will so are you" she replies and scruffs up my hair.

"So what are you doing?" I ask her and she thinks for a minute and puts her hair down running her hand through her locks. "Erm I'm just chilling on the floor of a studio in Jamaica  whilst I listen to your songs" she giggles and it makes me lighten up. "No I mean in your book, you know the one you never let me see or touch" I say and she looks me in the eyes for a moment then her eyes wonder somewhere else.

"Come on why won't you let me see it babe, I let you read my journal" I negotiate and she huffs loudly. She turns to the side and closes her book and holds it in her hands keeping it close to her she moves it slightly closer to me and looks down at it. "Go on you can touch it" she says sarcastically says and I look down at the burgundy leather with her initials printed in the top right corner and I trace the letters.

"There you touched it now don't moan that you've never touched it" she says and pulls it back, I gave her the 'are you being serious look' and she smiles at me widely almost mocking me. I put my arm around her shoulder and pull her in and she falls in to my lap and now her head lays on my lap whilst my legs are stretched and I play with her hair.

"Baby" I say gently and she looks up at me "Yeah Shawn"
"Please just show me I promise I won't judge, I won't laugh, you know what I won't say anything at all" I plead and she gives me a look of annoyance "Shawn I love you and all but this is just personal and it's the only thing that's mine, everything else everyone knows like everyone knows what I like and what I don't like and even where I live and what I wear everyday but this is just mine" she tries to explain to me and I cross my arms over my chest and she looks away from me staring at the ceiling.

"Y/n come on I share everything with you and I showed you my journal so show me yours" I say slightly frustrated and she closes her eyes tightly then gets up from my lap and sits up against the sofa. "Shawn stop asking me I'll let you see it when I want you to see it" she says sternly and I grow annoyed why won't she show me that god dam book.