SM Imagines

Changes

Mmm, baby, I don't understand this
You're changing, I can't stand it
My heart can't take this damage
- xxxtentacion changes

"I'll be back later" her sweet lips kissing his for only a split second before she takes off. Her legs bare in her short dress. "Bye love" she didn't even hear him, the door slams and it was like he was talking to himself.

This is not how she used to be. Lingering longer on his lips hoping the kiss would never end or just not leaving his side.

Shawn falls asleep rather quickly dreaming of the times when she would fall asleep in his arms. Her arms around his torso, head resting on his chest.

Dreaming of the nights when he would lay on her chest hearing her heart race at the touch of fingers on her skin. Or hearing her laugh when he did the stupidest things.

He spent hours dreaming of her but his mind snaps at the sound of her heels clicking against the floor as she walks in. Peeling her dress off she gets in beside Shawn.

"Shawn?"

He hums a yes turning towards her. His eyes flicker open to see her sat up, her face not covered in makeup in anymore instead her face was bare and beautiful.

She had her hair in a bun with loose hair falling down her face. "What's up?" Shawn asks sitting up. Y/n takes his hand in her lap looking down at the perfectly fitted joint hands.

She cries squeezing her hand. He grows confused and all the worse possible things enter his mind, a trance of paranoia.
He gulps "you cheated?" his voice soft.

"No, oh god no. I would never do that to you" she whispers wiping her face with her free hand.

"What is it then?" He asks trying to get her to look at him but she couldn't.

"Shawn I-I..." she cries even more. The loud echoes of her cries hitting Shawn.

"Y/n please" a tear slips his eye. "Shawn we don't feel the same anymore" she says in a hush tone.

"What! What d-do you mean?" Complete hurt settles in his heart.

"I-I just can't, I live a different lifestyle Shawn. Partying, socialising but then I love reading and enjoying my time" she tries her best to explain to Shawn what's in her heart and on her mind.

He stays silent for a second leaving his mouth agape. "You're changing" he says under his breath making her look up at him.

"What?" She asks. He moves his hand away from hers.

"You're changing, you're not like this and it's breaking me. You're not the girl I feel in love with" a harsher tone dominates his voice, just showing how upset and angry he was.

"Shawn, i still love you-"

"No you don't. The girl I fell in love with was quiet in front of strangers but opened up to me. Not a big drinker but when you would drink it would only be champagne. You used to fall asleep in my arms and now you want space. Tell me about your day but now you come home and fall asleep" he shuffles away from her. Wanting to distance himself from her.

"Yes I've changed but I'm still me, I still love you Shawn and I know you like the back of my hand. Like how when you get home you either have a cup of coffee or glass of scotch depending on how the day went and then you sit outside, leave your phone and admire the view. How you're so organised but won't admit it. How much you love blasting music with your windows down driving our late night drives." Using her thumbs she wipes her tears. "I'm still me"

"But your not, you've changed. Not the woman I love"

Her heart breaks, she physically felt a knot in her throat. "You don't love me?" She asks.

"Like I said you've changed and I can't take it and I don't understand why" his voice now clear.

"I d-don't get it-"

"You're not the woman I fell in love with"

She nods standing up. "I'm not changing anymore, not to please you". It takes all the bones in her body, all the courage she had to walk out.

Her breath hitching as she turns to see him one last time. His face looking away, he didn't want her anymore.

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