Can see you coming Nathan Sykes & the wanted fanfic

Chapter 39

Ok, may I say that I just wrote chapter 66 last night and that it is by far my favorite chapter so far, cause I just love it so much. Can't wait for you guys to read it x

Enjoy

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After we were done all the objections id had came back full force. I walked out of Nathans room and went into the kitchen, because of course I'd left my phone there. I put it in my pocket and Nathan came out. "Ellen!" he said. I smiled at him. "you know Ellen, I really love you." he said. "I'm sorry about everything that happened in our relationship, but I feel like we've gotten over it and that we'll be together for a long time." he said and kissed me, I frowned. I knew at that moment that this had to come to a stop.

I couldn't have both Nathan and Harry and that the longer I waited the harder it would be. Harry went into the living room and sat for a while, chilling. Nathan came into the Living room and Harry ran into his room. I walked out and looked at Nathan. Joy leapt into his eyes when he saw me and he pulled me to him and kissed me. I pushed him away and stared at him. "Nathan, we have to talk." I said. "about what?" he asked.

"about this, about us, about Harry." I said, he frowned. "why?" he asked. "because Nathan, I've seen the way he looks at me, the way he talks to me, he loves me and I'm betraying him." I said. "Ellen, can't you see the way I look at you? The way I talk to you, I love you to." he said. "I know Nathan, I know, but this can't keep happening, Harry's your best friend." I said. "but Ellen..." he started. "Nathan, I love you." I said and I cupped his cheek in my hand.

"I love your dirty sense of humor, I love that you let me do what I want, I love that every time I see you I get butterflies in my stomach, that every time we touch it feels like electricity, I love Everything about you." I said, he stared at me. "but Harry, i can't sneak around behind his back anymore." I whispered. "do you love him?" asked Nathan.

"thats not..." I started. "do, you, love, him?" asked Nathan again. "I don't know!" I shouted and backed up. "I just dont fucking know, but I know that this will kill him and I can't do that to him." I whispered. "you think I wanted this? You think I wanted to break my best friends heart?" he shouted. "to steal my best friends girl?" I shook my head. "well then what did you want?" I asked. "you Ellen! I want you. It's not my fault that I fell in love with you! I fell for you first, I'm sorry I was such an idiot, I'm sorry I cheated on you." he screamed, I stopped.

"Nathan, we have to tell him, or end this." I whispered. "Ellen..." he started, but I cut him off. "Nathan, I care about Harry to much to betray him." I whispered, he stopped then. "could you do it?" he asked. "do what?" I asked back. "could you go back to him, after everything we've shared, after all we've done, after I've bared my soul to you?" he asked. "nathan you cheated on me, I..." I started, but he cut me off. "seeing him with you, seeing him touch you, I couldn't take it, it would kill me Ellen." he said.

"then think about how it will kill Harry! I'm his girlfriend, to find I love his best friend, it would crush him." I shot back. "but I love you. I loved you first, it was my stupidity that drove you away from me! I cheated on you, then you left me like you should have, but you never came back to me." he said. "not everything is fucking about you!" I shouted. "you love me, he loves me and I don't fucking know who I love!" I shouted, then I calmed down. "maybe I love you both." I whispered, he was silent. "all I know, is I love you both to much to hurt either of you like this, so I'm leaving." I said.

"leaving?" asked Nathan, "yes Nathan, leaving, I can't stay and torture either of you like this. You'll forget about me soon I'm sure, you'll find another hot girl and have a great life and You two will stay best friends and I won't torture you by staying." I said and took a step back. Nathan grabbed my arm and pulled me against him. "Ellen, don't leave me." he whimpered, I shook my head.

"I can't stay and hurt either of you." I said and tried to back up, but he pulled me harder against him. "Ellen, if I have to choose, between You dating my best friend and everyday seeing you and him happy together, every morning waking up without you and knowing your with him, or never seeing you again, I'd want you with him." he started. "Ellen I can't live without you in my life, i know Harry will make you happy and I couldn't live waking up every morning and wondering where you were and if you were happy. Stay here, stay with Harry, I'll be your Best friend again and I'll never speak of us again." he continued.

"just don't leave me forever, my life without you in it is meaningless, even if you are another's. The time iwas with you was the best time of my life, I'm sorry it took so long for me to realize, just how much I love you." he whispered, I didn't know until now, but tears were streaming down my face as I listened to him. I cupped his cheek in my hand and looked up into his beautiful emerald grey eyes. "Nathan, I'll always love you." I whispered, he nodded and I realized he was crying to.

"just once more, to tide me over till the end." he whispered, then he leaned down and his lips lightly brushed mine. His hands grabbed my hips and pulled me roughly against him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him harder. He licked my lip and we deepened the kiss and started making out. The kiss turned hungry, I'd never been kissed like this before.

It was electric and spoke of everything that could come. I lost track of how long we'd kissed and just focused on remembering everything about this kiss. How soft his lips were against mine, his breath against my face, his hands on my hips, his silky hair and how amazing I felt, he finally pulled back and rested his forehead on mine, he was crying Harder now. "I hope Harry makes you happy." he sobbed. "but I'll never forget you." he said. "and im so sorry about cheating on you, just know I'll never, ever, find someone like you." he ended and his lips lightly brushed mine again.

I stayed like that, wrapped around Nathan, for one last time and I never wanted to let go."I'm going for a while, just a bit to get over this." said Nathan. "I'll be back soon though." he said, then he gave me a kiss and walked out. I stayed there, note sure what to do. Harry walked in and I looked at him. He gave me a half hearted smile. "hi Ellen." he said. "Harry..." I started, but he cut me off. "I heard everything Ellen, don't stay with me because you feel guilty, I get that you really love Nathan, I love you enough to know when to let you go." he said, I smiled and ran to him, giving him a huge hug. "thanks hazza." I whispered.

He nodded and hugged me tighter. "you're welcome, I take it this means you're going back with Nathan, not me?" he asked, I nodded. "sorry Harry." I said, he shrugged. "love is love, we all do crazy fucked up things for it." he said. "I'll see you soon, and I better be the fucking best man at your wedding." he said, I grinned and nodded. " promise." I said, he smiled. "alright, I've got to go." he said, then have me a hug, kissed my head and walked out.

I sat on the couch and sighed. "dam." I whispered, now I had to tell Nathan, would he even want me back now after that? I didn't know, but I knew I couldn't give up on him. So I just chilled on the couch and waited, my eyes closed and I accidentally fell asleep on the couch.