River ▷ Meteor Garden

No Denying

Whenever I was a kid I didn't really ever encounter surprising things. But when I did it always made me depressed. I would scold myself for believing the fact surprises could be a good thing. Ignoring the fact that they were going to be disappointments.

Like that one time I was eight expecting my Dad to come to my birthday tea party where I drew him his favorite China piece we once saw in a temple. I remember being so excited and nervous. Jia would bring my hopes up, repeating over and over that our Dad would love my drawing since I had such a good talent at a young age. But when he didn't show up for the maids to tell me he wouldn't come because he had more important things to attend made me sad. But the fact that I was surprised that he wouldn't come made me angry. I should've known better than to be naive.

I promised myself repeatedly to expect the worst in others. That's why through out my childhood I barely had any friends because when I tried to give in they wouldn't expecting the worst out of me. So I began to do the same.

However, Nick was the only one people who accepted me as their friends growing up. And with him I felt like I didn't even try. Maybe that's why I developed a crush on him. Because he was the one to prove me wrong about everyone.

But that was when we were kids. Since then not many were able to change my stubborn mind.  Except for four people.  Shancai, Li Zhen, and Quinghe.

And then there's him.

There were too many times where he's surprised me in both good and bad. And right now this was just undecided.

My hand that was formed in a tight fist slowly unformed as I inhaled deeply,"Kiara I've been looking for you everywhere why haven't you answered your phone?" He demanded as he stood up but not without helping me first.

I stared at him unable to find the words to answer him. I mean I knew the answer to his question but seeing him here was just a shock to me. I hadn't seen him in almost two weeks and he suddenly pops up when I'm at my worst. It's like he was my own fairy god mother. Who I was insanely attracted and somehow still annoyed me til death.

"Kiara?" He repeated that I snapped out of my mind and blinked the thoughts away,"I lost it at the school" I admitted. I lost it when Seoyeon knocked all my stuff down. Before the incident happened.

When I answered him Daoming Si eyes softened showing sadness all over,"I saw what happened."

Oh god. I scoffed nodding refusing to look at his saddening eyes any longer,"Of course you did. Let me guess you also saw the articles too?"

He didn't at first. Then I heard him sigh,"It's all over the internet. Along with the video of your friend in a ambulance and you getting in."

I scoffed again, shaking my head,"Why am I not surprised.."

"Kiara lets go"

Suddenly I snapped. Those three words triggered my anger as I looked at him with angry tears,"Where would I go Si!? I—I have no where to go. I can't go to the airport, I don't have my shit, I lost it all, I can't even step inside my own house without getting ambushed with paparazzi."

Si grabbed my hand as he held a determined look,"We're going to my place. You'll be staying there for now."

I widened my eyes as my jaw dropped. He couldn't be serious. This was a prank. Or maybe I misheard. After a moment of silence I let out a laugh. So looked at me confused as I continued to laugh,"That's funny I could've swore you just said I'm staying at your place."

"That's exactly what I said."

I stopped laughing as my whole face dropped. He smiled at me, happily,"What can I say I'm amaz—Owh! Kiara!"

I didn't bother letting him finish as I began to punch his arm harshly,"Are.You.Crazy!?" I snapped,"What would your fiancé say if she saw me staying at your place. In fact why are you even here? Shouldn't you be kissing your fiancé to bed?"

He grabbed my fist pulling me closer to his face. I froze as he then cupped my face,"Kiara, I'm not getting married. I don't care what you say. I can't be with someone whose not you. When she touches me your still in my thoughts. She tries to kiss me but I—I can't do it. Only if it's you."

I was left breathless. My hands loosened darting my eyes at him. He gave up his marriage, his moms wishes for me? Was I really worth that much to him? That he was going to give up everything? Despite the reputation I held in the public eye right now?

I hesitantly placed my hand on his cheek and pulled him down to my lips. Si seemed surprised by the kiss but kissed back as our lips moved in sync.

This kiss wasn't rushed, or sexual. It was sweet, full of passion, a long awaited kiss that made me try to savor the most of it.

As he kissed me more I couldn't help but smile against his lips. We pulled away as my smile grew,"I don't want to be with anyone. Unless it's with you too."

Si gleamed as he suddenly spun me in the air causing giggles to erupt from my mouth.

Despite the trouble I was in its like it all vanished. Si had that much power over me, and I don't think he realizes what he can do to me. Even the sound of his name makes my heart beat like crazy. Was he..my first love?