It's funny how many times I've commented on how Ansel screwed up but I think I screwed up more than he did. I hate myself. I want this to be over. I should have just killed myself instead of talking to Ansel.
"Ansel?" I said.
"Yea?" He said.
"Why did you stop me?"
"Stop you from what?"
"Killing myself. I've put you through hell and back why would me leaving be a bad thing?"
"I love you. The past is the past. I did stupid shit too. We all do things we regret but that doesn't mean you need to end your life."
"But everything I've ever done has been a mistake. If I could have just stopped myself from having feelings for you and just stayed friends with you none of this shit would have happened." At this point tears were streaming down my face like a freaking river.
"I know you don't mean that." He started tearing up.
"But maybe I do Ansel. Don't you see you brought me into this? This is your fault." Why did I say that. Shit.
"Really? It's takes 2 to have a kid Mackenzie. Grow up, your 20 years old I can't believe you. You can't play the blame game your whole life, own up to your mistakes for once." He walked away.
I glared at the knife. It's time. It's over. I'm leaving. I walked over grabbed the knife and slit my throat. The last thing I heard was Ansel yelling.
"OH MY GOD! HELP SOMEONE HELP." He was crying holding my hand. I'm gone. Dead. It's finally over. But is it really over? Do my problems really end just by dying? Or did I just create another problem?
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Lucky I'm in Love With My Best Friend (Ansel Elgort)
FanfictionMackenzie Lipton and Ansel Elgort have been friends since they were 3. But maybe they'll become more.
