Voodoo Doll

Chapter 52

Carson

The house was silent.

Everytime I'd walk around, I'd see Sam and Calum talking in hushed voices.

Anna giving Luke comforting hugs. Or Sam giving Ashton a little kiss on the cheek.

And Bell.

Bell was there, not for Mikey, or me, but all the others.

That stung.

Because I really did think she liked me as a friend.

Ashton kept giving me these longing looks.

And I felt horrible.

I could barely live with out them for 2 hours.

How was I going to last the 2 weeks of the tour I wouldn't be their for?

Mikey and I sat in his room, quiet for most of the day.

We sat on either side of the room, backs against the wall.

It wasn't until I started to cry did he speak up.

"I think boys and girls are equally confusing." He said, not meeting my tear filled eyes.

I gave him a what-the-hell-I'm-crying-you-bastard look.

He shrugged, and my eyes flickered down the to the hole I was picking at in my black

skinny jeans.

"I feel like a bigger bitch than ever before." I sigh.

Michael's sad eyes stare at me. "Tell me about it."

I couldn't decide what his words meant. So I decided to babble on.

"I love Luke. And I mean that. But Ashton, I can't just leave him in the dust. Because

I really like him too. And I don't even know where Calum even is in all of this."

I put my head in my hands. "I'm so f**ked up."

Michael's sad eyes were now tear filled. "Don't say that stuff about yourself. Because you'll

start to believe your nothing."

I couldn't meet his eyes.

It wouldn't help me. To see another person I made sad.

He continued speaking. "Because you really are something."

I crawled over to him then, and gave him a hug.

"I love you Mikey. Your the best friend anyone could ask for."

I stood up, my big green sweater sliding over my hands.

"I'm going to go talk to Luke. And Ashton. And Calum." I sighed.

Just before I left, I heard Michael speak.

"If you really loved the first one, you wouldn't have fallen for the second."

Well That wasn't helpful.