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Chapter One Hundred & Twelve | MemoriesXGoodbye

Gilbert had been obsessed with Eliza for centuries, the idea of them together alone in the next room unnerved me, especially since I've now realized I'm a little more than in like with Gilbert. Do I call it love? It's a crush sure but we haven't dated or anything so how can I know?

Eliza stepped into the next room Gilbert cautiously following her, he gave me an unsure shrug and they shut the door to Francis's study.

I growled lowly as I ate my cereal.

"Did you just growl?" Antonio asked.

"I've known you for months you should be used to this," I huffed, "what are they talking about anyway?"

They stared into each other's eyes. They shared the same guilt, the same history, the same story, the same pang in their hearts as they held hands face to face.

Centuries.

That's how long they've been together, on and off and on again. Not just for sex, for an escape, for the happiness they longed for all their lives. Eliza and Gilbert's fates were always intertwined and they knew one day it might be over but they didn't expect it to be over today.

"You love her."

"I do."

"You found your happiness?"

"I have."

"Vhat do I do..."

"Go to Roderich."

"Ju hate him."

"Cause he's a sissy," Gilbert huffed and Eliza snorted.

"But how can I know he's right...I like girls too am I ignoring someone else who could be right for me?"

"You and I have vondered the same thing for centuries. But...pretty soon as vampires vill rise to the top and take responsibility of the humans and vhis planet and...I think ve both knew it vas coming...vhen ve'd settle down, never thought I vould though..." Gilbert blushed, scratching the back of his head awkwardly. Eliza laughed lightly and sighed.

Gilbert continued, "you know I hate saying anything nice about vhat guy but...I vas always jealous of him."

Her eyes lit up in surprise, looking him over closely trying to assess if he was telling the truth.

"Vhy?"

"Cause I always knew you two vere inseparable in a vay you and I aren't... Eliza remember your childhood...You ran avay and vere starving and alone and afraid and you know vhat convinced you to seek help? You heard Roderich's piano. Every night vhen Ju were scared and tried to hide your crying while you vere new to the orphanage, you listened to Roderich's piano. Vhen I vent away you punched me as a goodbye, vhen Roderich vas adopted you cried for days. Roderich wrote a song for and about you from the moment you met. Roderich was figuring himself out too vhen you first vere engaged but he's still vaiting for you now. Even when you run to me and I to you. You're Roderich's found girl, you aren't lost because of him. You're alive because of him, you got through all your difficulties in your human life because ju had Roderich who accepted you as you vere and gave you a freedom women didn't have back then...I...I could never give vhat to you...I vasn't accepting, I vasn't around, If I hadn't met the vampire you might not have been strung along..."

"I..." Eliza was on the verge of tears lip quivering and Gilbert looked away holding back tears of his own.

"I don't want to say goodbye," the tears spilled onto her cheeks as she tried to keep her composure.

"N-neither do I," Gilbert's voice cracked.

They embraced tightly and cried softly, remaining in the moment for some time as memories of old flashed through their minds.