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Chapter One Hundred & Four | TempermentalXUs

When we walked back downstairs I decided kicking Gilbert's ass wasn't going to help him. If anything, like Antonio, said, he might enjoy it. I know damn well the kinky BDSM shit Gilbert hides in his room and I wasn't about to indulge any of that.

Gilbert was snacking on potato chips like nothing happened and Eliza was watching tv.

It was startlingly normal just the addition of Eliza and the obvious unease that hung in the air.

My realization of love made me a thousand times uneasier. Nothing could possibly go right in this situation. Just like every time before I fall in love but I know I could never settle, I'm restless and free-spirited, love and marriage are binds and chains to me and no matter the pain I'd have to step back and watch him fall for someone else.

Just like every other man I'd ever loved.

I keep it to myself and I let my heartbreak and then I find someone else to distract me and repeat the cycle again.

The only spark of hope I had was I knew Eliza and Gilbert aren't meant for each other. But I can't possibly be meant for Gilbert?

Gilbert like hardcore BDSM and I'd rather not have sex at all.

He'd rather spend the day gaming, I'd rather write and read.

He blocks out the world and I take it in.

He's lazy and I'm restless.

He's bound to his past and mine set me free.

We aren't the same people at all.

Except we are.

Same humor, same childishness, same curiosity, we both lack a filter, we both get defensive and aggressive and apathetic and emotional. I could be describing most people though. Why do I love him?

Do I actually love him?

You can't put a label on love but according to the trio, our auras reflect our kind of love. Gilbert is Ludos, fun love. I'm Storge, familial love.

Very different. Too different.

I realized I must be staring into the void as I thought these things because I'd paused in front of the table and Gilbert had stopped crunching on his chips and was staring at me nervously while Francis, Antonio, and Eliza gave me confused looks.

I didn't know what else to do I panicked and I snatched Gilbert's bag of chips and I ran back upstairs.

"Vhat the hell?" He cried and I tried to reach my bedroom door before he caught up but that was pointless, he's a vampire, it doesn't matter how fast I am.

He grabbed me from behind and we both fell forward onto the carpeted ground just in front of my door.

"Give me my chips."

"No! You don't deserve chips!" I shouted and tried to stretch my arm far away enough he wouldn't reach them but he sat up and pinned me to the ground by placing his hand in between my shoulder blades and he reached out and grabbed it.

He stood up and I quickly jumped to my feet and whipped around.

He looked concerned and confused.

"Are ju okay...?" He asked and I glared at him.

"No dammit!" And I did the thing I told myself not to do and I lunged at him. I surprise he misstepped and nearly fell back down the stairs. He caught me midair before I could fall down instead and for a minute we were silent. My face pressed into his chest.

Quietly and with determination I hissed as I held back tears, "I'm not mad at you for what you did. I'm mad at you for what you're doing."

"I'm eating chips," he dismissed and I angrily shoved him and ran back down the stairs and right out the front door.