My Heart Hates Me

Chapter 17 Getting Started

Kirito stared at ceiling above him as he lay on the sofa. With the dawn hitting in, the room got brighter. He took a deep breath and looked at the window at the end of his feet. He slowly got up and sat on the sofa.

'Ethan...He knows' Kirito thought to himself. He looked at the floor as silence surrounded him. Vivian slept peacefully on the bed. He got up and got inside the bathroom. He took a hot water shower as he constantly increased the temperature of the water.

He looked at the shower wall as the mist covered the bathroom and the mirror turned foggy. He pressed his head on the wall and closed his eyes.

"Thanks bastard. You've reminded me of everything all over again." He said. He stayed in the shower for about an hour as memories hit him. Memories about Ethan.

"She looked just like you..... She was 14 at that time"
"How old were you?"
"I was 18"

"You were 18 and a friggin psycho" Kirito turned off the shower. He touched his shoulders and his feet as he sat on the floor.

"I don't wanna go out."

After a while, he got up. He stepped out of the bathroom and reached near his cupboard. He wore a blue jersey over his breifs. He turned back and found that Vivian was gone.

He grabbed a white T- shirt and walked around looking here and there. She suddenly sprung up from the kitchen closet and shouted. Kirito shouted back as he shook himself. He took hold of his breath and pressed his hand over his chest.

"Got you!" Vivian laughed.
"Is that such a great achievement?" Kirito asked.
"Yes!" She smiled. He narrowed his eyes and then turned back. He clenched his T- shirt and bit his lips.

'Not now' He thought as he closed his eyes.

"Hiomi?" Vivian eaned towards him.
"Don't shout in the morning. It's annoying." He said without looking at her "It's a bit of--"
"Are you in pain?" Vivian asked as she stood behind him. He turned back and looked at her. She pressed her hands on his forehead.

He looked at her as she looked at his forehead "I don't think you have a fever" Then, she narrowed her eyes and pressed his temples "Why is your skin weird? Did you bath for very long?"

He said nothing. He just looked at her. Her eyes seemed worried as she touched his cheeks "Don't bath for so long. And keep the temperature skin friendly. Obviously, you don't want to ruin your looks" She chuckled as she moved her hand away.

He grabbed her wrist and looked at her "Why do you think I'm in pain?"
"The answer is simple" Vivian said in German.
"And it is?" Kirito said in German.
"It's because I love you so I can tell" Kirito looked at her and leaned towards her "Is that all?"

"Are you doubtful?" Vivian asked.
"No, yes, maybe. Say Vivian, if someone asked you they would give you everything if you do something you shouldn't do, what would you do?" He asked.

"Everything?"
"Yes, everything you want."
"You can't have everything--where would you put it?" Vivian answered.

Kirito pressed his hands over his head "Forget I asked that"
"Why are you so boring?"
"Why are you so loud, Jesus Christ" Kirito pressed his eyes.

"I'm not loud!"
"I think it's a German thing."
"Loudness?"
"Yes"
"It may be something amazing!" She almost climbed on top of him.

"Okay okay. Let's discuss that later. Prepare the breakfast" Kirito pushed her away slowly. He went ahead and poured some coffee into a cup.
"I'll do that right away!" He sat at the dining table and looked into his phone while sipping his coffee.