Don't Touch Me, Nerdy [COMPLETED]

Chapter 56.

Rizianne's

Napagdesisyunan ko munang bumalik sa kwarto ko dito sa hospital. Gustuhin ko mang mag tagal doon sa ICU kung nasaan si Nerdy, kahit sa labas man lang, ay pinilit ako ng Mom ni Nerdy na bumalik na sa kwarto ko para makapagpahinga. I'm so thankful that I met her. She told me about my mom back then, even though its just a part of my Mom's life but, its enough for me to feel and know that she really loves me.

Pero kahit may nalaman na ako tungkol sa kanya noon, hindi ko pa rin maiwasang isipin kung sino ang totoo kong ama. Yes I want to know him, but it doesn't mean that I still want him to be my Dad. Galit ako sa kanya. She made Mom suffered in pain. Bakit niya ginawa yon?!

But even I want to know him, hindi ko naman alam kung saan ako mag sisimula na hanapin sya. Nerdy's Mom didn't know him as well. So what now?!

What about Dad? Did he knew? About my real Father?

At dahil naisip ko Dad.

So Dad cheated my real Mom? They are in relationship together back then. What the hell happened?

Nang nasa pintuan na ko ng kwarto ko dito, bago ko pa buksan ng tuluyan ang pinto, narinig ko ang boses ni Dad.

"... your sister is not here yet, and I'm worried...I don't know... I think she will never forgive me.... Okay I will try... "

Is it Kuya?

Nang hindi ko na marinig na boses ni Dad, maybe he finished talking to Kuya, kaya pumasok na ko.

I saw Dad. Hindi sya nakatingin sakin. Nakatungo lang sya na parang napakalalim ng iniisip. I sighed. Be strong Rizianne. Be strong to know and handle the truth.

"Dad.."

Bigla naman syang tumingi sa gawi ko. I can see worries in his eyes.

Tumayo sya sa pag kakaupo at dali daling lumapit sakin. " God princess. Where have you been?! Pinag aalala mo ako princess." and slowly, his face soften.

I looked at his eyes. This is it Rizianne. Just say it.

" Dad.. I knew everything.. and about my real Mom..Rose.."

I saw him stilled.

Hinawakan ko sya sa kamay. To calm him. " Nerdy's Mom told me. She said she's not in position to tell those to me but, I'm glad. I'm happy to knew something especially about my mom. She also said that you don't have a strenght to tell me about that. Is that true dad?"

Nag baba ang tingin niya. " I-I'm sorry for not telling you the truth. Yes, I don't have strength to tell you. I'm so afraid to be hated by you. Napamahal ka na sakin. I lose your Mom. And I don't want to lose you too princess.." he said. I can feel the pain in his words.

Pinisil ko ang kamay niya na hawak ko. " Dad.. "

Nag angat ito ng tingin at tinignan ako. Napakalungkot ng mukha nito. Especially his eyes. " I loved her. I loved your Mom. when I met her, she's the most amazing woman in my eyes. She's beautiful inside and outside. She brought happiness in my dark word. Kahit na may pagka matapang sya, wala akong pake. Hindi non nabawasan ang pag mamahal ko sa kanya. Maybe I love her more because of that." he said and I heard him chuckled. And then, he continue. " B-But I'm a bastard. I've met stella in a party and I was so drunk. Wala kong maalala sa mga nangyari. I just woke up in a room with a woman sleeping beside me. First I thought its Rose but, when I saw her, all I can think was, I'm so stupid. Na bakit ko nagawa yon? I have a girlfriend that I really love for fvck sake! Naisip ko na mawawala sya sakin pag nalaman niya yon." he smile, but its a sad one. " But theres no secret that will never be found. Natakot ako non. Nang sabihin sakin ni Stella na buntis sya. But Rose, she didn't hit nor say some hurtful words to me. She just smiled. And that day. Pinag sisihan ko ang nagawa ko. Nawala sya sakin nang dahil sa kagaguhan ko."