A Little Sane

Chapter 47

Zella stood in front of Jerome with a smile. He raised his eyebrows.

"Yes?"

Zella set on the couch next to him. 

"Just wondering what's up. This is the third day without the kids you have let me crash here."

Jerome laughed, but shook his head. He set up straight.

"Correction. You just fall asleep on my couch on purpose. I'm already too much of an asshole. I just leave you."

Zella straddled Jerome's lap. Jerome looked at her shocked. She leaned forward and got inches from his face.

"I think you like me being here.."

Jerome gently placed his hands on her stomach and pushed her back.

"Zella what are you doing?"

Zella groaned annoyed. She smirked and ran her hand up his thigh.

"I mean you haven't slept with your wife in over a month.. there has to be an inch you need scratched.."

Jerome grabbed her wrist. 

"Don't do that."

Zella groaned again and walked to the kitchen. 

Mercedes took a deep breath. She ambled into the room. She stood near the door for the longest. She felt she couldn't move. She could feel her hands shaking. She slowly walked in front of the glass.

"Mercedes...? Is that really you...?"

She was staring straight at her father. His eyes were watery. Mercedes was still angry at him, but she couldn't help her heart broken face. She thought it would be easier to see him after all these years, but she was wrong. 

"What's wrong...?"

Mercedes fell to her knees in front of the glass crying hard.

"Daddy I'm so lost... I don't know what to do..."

Her father set in front of the glass and placed his hand on it. Mercedes placed her hand over his. She could see the tears in his eyes. 

"Baby girl... I truly am so sorry... please believe me.. I've missed you so much.."

Mercedes couldn't help her heavy tears. 

"I still don't understand... How could you help give birth to me... and then.. raise me the way you did... there was always so much love... it's still so hard for me to believe that you were just using me..."

Her father couldn't speak. He didn't know what to say. He wiped his tears.

"Why don't you love me..."

Her father shook his head. 

"Baby girl that is not true.. we do love you... all those school programs and birthdays.. those were real.. the important stuff was real.."

Mercedes looked at her father confused and heartbroken.

"But you wanted to use me to do horrible things... You didn't care how I felt about it.."

Her father let a few more tears fall again.

"That is something I truly regret... We were blinded by power.. now that we've had time to actually see..."

Her father could tell something was seriously bothering her.

"Do you wanna talk about what's going on?"

"Do you regret marrying him...?"

Mercedes shook her head no.

"Daddy I love him... but I feel like I can't breathe... I love my kids.. but some days.. I feel like such a shitty person.. I just want to end it.."