Jerome stood on the peer outlooking the water as the wind blew. He over analyzed everything he has been through. He over analyzed everything he had put Mercedes through. He knew he didn't deserve the family he had gained. He knew he didn't deserve the love Mercedes had for him. He genuinely did love her, but he knew for a fact that he was a master manipulator. No woman in their right mind would ever fall in love with him or marry him without a little help on his end. No matter what happened to her, she kept running back to him. She was too far deep into his life to pull herself back out.
It would be a complete shock to her system if she completely left and it was like he had never existed. Every fight that was turned violent. He knew it was stupid to even imagine that those went away and his anger problem was fixed. Jerome knew that part of him would never go away. He had unconsciously trained a woman to know when to expect abuse. A woman who knew when to duck, shut up, or swing first. Jerome could see the self-questioning in her eyes. Why am I with him? Why do I allow this? She had endured a life time of abuse the same as he did. It only made sense that she would settle for a unhinged psychopath.
Jerome shut his eyes when we watched the memory of her falling to the ground just after stabbing herself in the stomach with a sharp, rigid metal pole. He had driven a woman to attempt suicide. The only way she felt she could escape everything. He would rather her just leave him than die, but she loved him. Jerome understood all too well that she didn't really know exactly why she loved him. He understood that this life she was in took a mental toll on her, but she could never bring her heart to leave. In the deepest, darkest confusion, she loved him. Jerome found her both captivating and extremely annoying. He abused her and showed signs that he clearly didn't care about her or her life yet; he did and he couldn't lose her. The toxic drug addiction that would make shock them into fatal withdraws if it was taken away if even for a single moment. Even worse, their nightmare had spawned children.
Mercedes had chosen to take on Jerome's burdens, just as he did hers. Jerome fell against the railing with hard breathing just at the thought of losing her. He knew he was going to hell, but not his sweet and beautiful wife. The woman who he felt in his heart would not be the way she is if she hadn't met him. The woman he kidnapped out of pure confusion. The woman he never meant to fall so deeply in love with. The woman he had somehow manipulated into falling in love so deeply in love with him. His eyes were stinging and ready to water. His angry expression could crush even the strongest of structures. He phone started to ring and when he looked at the caller I.D. he instantly fell into heavy tears.
"Doll face..."
"Hey handsome! I was just checking to see where you were and when you were coming home. We miss you."
Jerome laughed and held back his crying voice that otherwise would have been cracked with emotion.
"I'm just at the peer. I was just hanging out. I'll head home now baby."
"Yay! I miss your face and was calling to bug you about hurrying up and come back to me."
Jerome pulled the phone away from his face as he struggled to hold back his breakdown. He laughed when he pulled the phone back to his ear.
"Of course! How can I say no to you? I'll speed my way home to you doll face. I miss you too..."
Mercedes laughed.
"Okay hurry up!"
Jerome couldn't help his laughter.
"I'm coming! I'm coming!"
"See you when you get back my love. I love you so much."
Without missing a beat Jerome responded.
"No, I love you so much. More than you will ever know Mercedes... See you in a few."
I know you think you're all alone
I haven't been there when you needed me
I didn't deserve the love you gave
But now I'm telling you "I'm here, if you need a friend"
Give me your pain
Give me your anger
Let me be your rock
I can be the pillar of strength that you need
I help you keep it all together
It's better late than never
Lay your world on me
I can take the weight
Don't let it twist you up inside
Time never fails to make the heartache stop
You've gotta let those feelings go
I'll give you everything I can
If you say the word
Give me your pain
Give me your anger
Let me be your rock
I can be the pillar of strength that you need
I help you keep it all together
It's better late than never
Lay your world on me
I can take the weight
We all live and we all cry
We all hurt the same inside
We all fall down
Then we lose faith and who we really are
But if we bend instead of break
The choice for us is to make it together
Lay your world on me
I help you keep it all together
It's better late than never
Lay your world on me
Lay your world on me
Lay your world on me
I can take the weight
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A Little Sane
Fanfiction*Book Two behind A Little Mad* This book is longer and consists of part one and part two of A Little Sane. "I don't know how to be me anymore.. I'm so angry.. But I don't have the fight in me to be my old self.." "How could you do that to her?!" "S...
