A Little Sane

Chapter 62

Mercedes stood on the roof overlooking the city. There was a slight chill in the air. This seemed to be the millionth time she had gone over it in her head. She hid her vomiting well. She used a test in the drug store bathroom and threw it away there. The test results were positive. She was pregnant. The one major problem was that the baby did not belong to her husband Jerome Valeska, but instead his rival twin brother Jeremiah Valeska. She couldn't decide what she was going to do. It was a big decision and either way, you couldn't hold it in. She eventually had to tell Jerome. She wanted to make her decision before she spoke with him. She thought about how strange it would be to give birth to her brother in law's baby. Would this child be her twins' sibling or cousin. Would this baby be safe? Would this end her marriage? On the other hand she felt this was an innocent child who didn't do anything wrong. It wasn't the child's fault they conceived. She had been torn with the idea of keeping the baby or just getting an abortion. She felt so alone in this decision that was incredibly difficult. Either option she would have to live with forever. She stared at her not yet formed belly and rubbed it.

"I promise you.. I'll make the best decision for you... You deserve the best decision.."

Mercedes gasped. Her feelings were heightened. She could feel a beautiful soul. A pure heart. An unconditional love for her. She could feel joy and happiness. She could feel purpose. It was the baby. She felt warm inside. A happiness that she couldn't explain. A test rolled down her cheek and a smile spread across her face. She instantly looked down at her stomach.

"I can feel you.."

The feelings increased and then disappeared. She closed her eyes and wiped away her tear.

"You want to live..."

She opened her eyes and smiled. She rubbed her stomach. She shook her head completely shocked.

"I can't even explain this.. But I just fell in love with you.. I can't do it.. I can't get an abortion or give you up for adoption.. I just can't.. I promise you.. I will never ever let anything happen to you my precious little baby.. I will keep you safe.. No matter what it takes. You will always have me as a mommy."

Mercedes instantly thought about Jeremiah. Jerome was going to be pissed either way, but Mercedes couldn't keep Jeremiah from his child. She knew that wasn't right. She also knew that she wasn't keeping this baby because of Jeremiah. She just wanted her child despite where they came from. She knew that Jeremiah being the father wasn't irrelevant to Jerome, but all Mercedes could see was that this child was hers. Maybe it was her being selfish, but she could feel how much better the world would be with this child in it. The child was just as extraordinary and wonderful as her twins. She didn't want to mess up things with Jerome or be with Jeremiah. She simply just wanted to have her child and love them. She wanted to know her baby. There wasn't a soul that could say Mercedes wasn't a mother. She took a deep breath. She had to prepare for the mess she had definitely gotten into. TaTyana and Ed's wedding with in a few weeks and she knew she had to hide the fact that it was Jeremiah's baby until after the wedding. She was hoping and preying that this wouldn't destroy her marriage. She she loved Jerome so much and never wanted to lose him, but she couldn't lose this baby. She hoped that Jerome would understand.

"Mommy!"

Mercedes turned around and was almost knocked over by the twins. She laughed. Jerome walked up.

"Clearing your head?"

Mercedes slowly nodded. She couldn't tell him yet. If he got angry, she would prefer him not to get angry in front of the kids. Jerome leaned forward and let his lips sit on her forehead for a few moments. Mercedes closed her eyes. She felt safe. They had already stepped out on the other side together through everything they had been through. She was hoping that their love could be enough to pull them through again.

"You've been acting a little sluggish lately. Are you okay doll face?"

Mercedes opened her eyes and smiled.

"I'm fine. Thank you. Just tired."

Jerome looked at her playfully worried.

"Of me?!"

Mercedes playfully hit in the chest laughing.

"No not of you. I'm never tired of you..."

Mercedes looked down slightly. Jerome lifted her chin and smiled.

"I'm never tired of you either."

He leaned forward and pecked her lips. He grabbed her hand.

"We actually came up here to get you. Abbe finished lunch."

Jessie jumped up and down.

"Mommy! Abbe made us man n cheese!"

Mercedes laughed. Aislinn's tapped Jessie.

"Race ya!"

The twins took off running towards the building door. Mercedes called after them.

"Hey! Hold on please! We don't want to fall down the stairs!"

Both of the twins groaned.

"Awe!"

Mercedes smiled and shook her head. Her and Jerome walked to the door and opened for the twins. Mercedes spoke.

"I know. Mean mommy. Mommy doesn't want you to fall and crack your skull or break you neck. Jerome how evil of me."

Jerome shook his head as his maniacal laugh rang through the air. Aislinn giggle and grabbed Jerome's hand.

"Daddy, you laugh is funny."

Jerome laughed again and Aislinn giggled as she pulled him down the stairs. The elevator was out of order and in desperate need of repair. Mercedes smiled and parted her lips to speak.

"Aislinn who's your best friend?"

Aislinn stopped after a flight of stairs and stared at Mercedes shocked.

"Daddy duh mommy!"

Aislinn rolled her eyes and snapped her head forward. She continue to drag Jerome down the stairs. Mercedes laughed and pretended to be offended. Jerome laughed loudly.

"An eye roll and everything. I though I was your best friend Aisie."

Aislinn giggled again. Jessie tugged on Mercedes's hand.

"You my best friend mommy."

Mercedes smiled. She lifted her growing son into her arms and kissed his cheek. She ran her finger through his curls.

"Thank you my sweet baby boy. I love you."

Jessie hugged Mercedes.

"Well, I love you too mommy!"

She set him back down.

"You're not getting and lighter. You have to walk my growing boy."

Jessie continued to hold her hand all the way back to the apartment. Once the every was situated with food Mercedes decided to turn on a movie for them to watch. She hoped it would take her mind off of her condition.