Arke High

Chapter 28

A/N There's the song Bellamy sings at the end of the Chapter.
Bellamy P.O.V
"Maybe you already cheated in me with him." I said. My eyes widened slightly as I realized what I just said."Im sorry Princess, I didn't mean" She slapped me. Why did I say that? It didn't hurt so much, but what did hurt was that she was the one to slap me. It hurt less when O slapped me. "Screw you, we're done Bellamy." She said a turned towards the Ford Flex. I watched the car drive away. Fucking shit! Why didn't I just shut my mouth? If I would've just kept my mouth closed she wouldn't of broken up with me, or at least she wouldn't of broken up with me now. I groaned in frustration, and I felt like I needed to punch something or someone. I went back inside, people were staring at me. Octavia came up to me.
"How could you cheat on my best friend?" She asked.
"O, I didn't cheat on her." I told her calmly."Nothing even happened."
"Nothing happened? You were about to have sex with me, until that bitch came in and interrupted us." Roma said. Roma was really pissing me off now, she was the reason Clarke thought I cheated on her.
"Get the fuck out of here Roma!" I screamed a her.
She screeched like a howler monkey, and stomped out the door. I turned to everyone.
"Parties over leave!" No one moved,"Now!" They all scurried out the door. The only people left were Fox, Jasper, Monty, Octavia, Miller, and myself.
"Now explain to us why Clarke thinks you cheated on her." O said. I sat on the stairs, they were all looking at me expectantly. They all had their arms crossed across their chests.
"First this kid had spilled their cheese dip on me so I asked Miller if I could grab a shirt from his room." I began. They nodded and I continued. "I went into his closet to grab a shirt, then I took off my shirt and when I entered the room Roma was there without a shirt or pants on."
"Okay then what happened?" Monty asked.
"I asked her what she was doing there, and she said that she wanted me. I told her to get out. She of course didn't. She pushed me on the bed and got on me I was about to push her off when Clarke came in. She didn't let me explain and came down here.You guys now the rest." I told them. Octavia seemed to believe me the others seemed a little skeptical.
"What did you tell her when she went outside with Camilo, and Raven?" Fox asked.
"I told her that if she loved me she would listen, and she told me that she didn't know if she loved me anymore." I paused for a bit and clenched my jaw as I fought back tears. There was no way in hell I was going to cry. Bellamy Blake does not cry.
"Is that it?" Jasper asked me.
"No, then I told her that she never loved me, and I kind of accused her as using what she saw as an excuse to break on me because she liked someone else, and because she probably already cheated on me with him." I told them.
Fox shook her head, Monty and Jasper looked a me like I was a huge dumb ass.
"Your such an idiot." O said.
"Hey!" I exclaimed.
"I agree with Octavia you're an idiot." Miller told me.
"Why'd you accuse her of cheating? You know Clarke isn't like that, she's probably wondering why you said that right now while crying her eyes out." O told me. I knew she was right, I felt terrible.
"I was just mad, and frustrated that she didn't want to listen to me, and that she told me she didn't know if she loved me. I guess she was right to break up with me."
They looked surprised."She broke up with you?" Jasper asked. I nodded. Everyone was quiet.
"What are you going to do?" O asked.
I shrugged."Nothing."
"What do you mean nothing? You love her don't you?" Asked O.
I nodded."Yeah, but she won't even listen to me, or let me apologize. There's nothing I can do."
"Well you're gonna have to think of something soon, because there were a lot of people that saw you two arguing." Fox told me.
"So?" I wasn't getting what she was trying to say.
"So, word will spread around the school that you two aren't together or in a fight. That's when one or more of the many boys that find Clarke attractive will sweep in and take her from you permanently. It could be a random guy from school or one of your friends, maybe even Camilo. Him and Clarke seem to have gotten pretty close in the time he's been here." O explained. My hands curled into fists."That and the fact that he's really cute and sweet could mean he and Clarke might get together if you don't do something." No that couldn't happen Clarke was mine. No wait she wasn't mine anymore. I looked down at the thought.
"I can't do anything about that O, she's not mine anymore. Maybe she will be better off without me, I'll just bring her problems." I told her.
"Your such a dumb ass, Bell. She loves you and I can't think of on problem you'll bring to her." She told me. Of course she couldn't think of any problems I would bring Clarke,. That was only because she didn't know about what happened with the Grounder Gang. They've left me alone since that one night at the bowling alley, but I couldn't count on them to keep away from the people I cared about. Then there's also Roma. I officially think Roma's crazy and she would do whatever to keep Clarke and myself separated.
"I wouldn't even know how to get her back O." I said. She rolled her eyes.
"Wow, is this the great Bellamy Blake King of Arke High giving up? Really?" Monty asked.
"What's your problem Monty?" I asked, he usually was quiet, and he never talked like that to anyone.
"You, you're being pathetic. " He said harshly. Everyone looked at him in surprise.
"Sure Clarke didn't let you explain and yeah that's her fault, but what was she supposed to think when she saw you half naked with a girl on top of you. Now you're not even gonna try to get her back. Get it in you're head that you also fucked up!"
"I know I fucked up! You don't have to remind me that I lost the girl I love and it was partly my fault!" I yelled at him, and stood up.Seriously what was up with him?
"Then man up, and go fight for Clarke." He poked my chest."Your girl."
I stared at him. On Friday he could barley talk to me because he thought of me as the Bellamy Blake, the king of the school. Now he was pissed and yelling at me, acting all tough. And he had a point. But I just didn't know what to do to get Clarke back.
"You're just gonna stay quiet. Fine I guess your not so great Bellamy Blake." Monty said.
"I agree with Monty you are being pathetic, just because you don't know how to get her back doesn't mean you can't at least try." Jasper said. Then Raven walked through the door.
"Your such an fucking idiot Bellamy Blake! How could you do that to Clarke!?" Raven asked and was about to me when, Monty wrapped his arms around her waist.
"Calm down he didn't cheat on Clarke." He told her. "But he is and idiot."
"What?" She asked.
"We'll explain on the ride to your house." O told her. Monty, Jasper, and O followed Raven out the door.
"Octavia where a you going?" I asked her.
"To Raven's house, don't talk to me until you decide to stop being an idiot." She said, and walked out of the house. i slumped back onto the stairs and slid my hand down my face.
"Well I'm going to sleep, we have to wake up for that survival trip tomorrow." Miller said, and went upstairs. Fuck, I had forgotten about that trip. A week without seeing the Princess. Even if she was mad at me, I still wanted to see her. I walked out of the house and went to my car. After banging my head on the steering wheel a couple of times for being so stupid, I drive home. When I arrived home I tried and failed to go to sleep. I kept picturing Clarke. Her smile, her voice, her beautiful eyes, her kisses. How it felt to have her in my arms. I remembered the first time she said she loved, the first time we sang together, the first time I heard her sing, our first date. Then my thoughts shifted to when she saw me with Roma, the pain in her eyes was very evident. Then when she was hugging Camilo, all I felt was pure jealousy and rage. Then when she said she didn't know if she loves me. That hurt me so much. It felt like I couldn't breath. I was frustrated and said something I didn't mean. Even though I didn't mean it I lost her. I lost Clarke the love of my life. The hurt and anger she felt showed. And I instantly felt guilty for saying what I did. I sat up on my bed and ran my hand through my hair. What was I gonna do? I grabbed the sleek black guitar Clarke had given me, only days ago. When my feelings were too much to handle music always helped. I began playing the first song that popped into my head, White Blank Page by Mumford and Sons.
Can you lie next to her
And give her your heart, your heart
As well as your body?
I couldn't do that with just anyone, but with Clarke I could.
And can you lie next to her
And confess your love, your love
As well as your folly?
I have done that.
And can you kneel before the king
And say I'm clean, I'm clean?
I don't think I could do that.
But tell me now, where was my fault?
In loving you with my whole heart
Oh, tell me now, where was my fault?
In loving you with my whole heart
I know I did something wrong, but I did truly love her.
A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage
You did not think when you sent me to the brink, to the brink
You desired my attention
But denied my affections, my affections
That how I felt when she told me she didn't know if she loved me.
So tell me now, where was my fault?
In loving you with my whole heart
Oh, tell me now, where was my fault?
In loving you with my whole heart
Lead me to the truth and I
Will follow you with my whole life
Oh, lead me to the truth and I
Will follow you with my whole life
I will follow my Princess with my whole life and heart. I just needed her to listen to me and forgive me. As I finished the song all I could think is, what am I gonna do without you Princess? What would I do if she never forgave me? I sat down my guitar and laid in bed, as I was about to fall asleep I got an idea. My eyes shot opened and I grabbed my guitar, and went to look for a camera. I set up the camera in my room and pressed play.