Arke High

Epilogue Gone

A/N Hey guys, I can't believe it, but this is the last story part of Arke High. :O
Please listen to that song up there(All You Ever by Hunter Hayes), while reading this chapter. Enjoy! :)
Clarke P.O.V
The Graduation after-part was still in full swing when Camilo, Monty, Jasper, Raven, and I decided to go to my house to finish celebrating. My mother, and Charlotte had gone to stay at a hotel, in order to let us celebrate on our own. Much to our disappointment, Bellamy and Octavia couldn't come, because the Kane's had arrived home and had ordered them to leave the after-party. We entered my house smiling, and joking around. We turned on some music, and the others started making snacks as I went to get changed into something more comfortable. I flicked on my room's light, and saw a bouquet of blue roses waiting for me on my bed, along with one of those large yellow envelopes. I smiled to myself, seeing the open balcony window. Bellamy must have left these for me. I went to my bed, first picking up the roses and smelling them, before I picked up the envelope. I reached inside and felt something cold. I frowned and took the item in my hand, pulling out. In my hand I held a silver chain with a key on it, the one I had given Bellamy for his birthday. My forhead creased in confusion. What was this? I reached in again, and this time took out the necklace which belonged to Bellamy's mother, and also the charm bracelet with the heart on it. Wait- how did he get this? I threw this into the street, after I found him "cheating on me," with Raven. Once more I reached into the envelope, and took out Bellamy's black guitar pick. What was happening? Why did he give me all this? I took out the last thing in the enevelope- a letter.
Dear Clarke,
Oh man, how do I even begin?
My eyebrows drew together.
Clarke, I want you to know that I love you. I love you more than anything. You are my sky, my sun, my light, my every breath, my every thought. Clarke Griffin, you are my world, my everything. And, rhat is why I need to let you go.
What? I continued to read, my hands were begining to tremble.
You're smart, nice, caring, and brave. You are truly a brilliant person. You have a great future ahead of you at Stanford.
Stanford? What was he talking about.
A great, bright future, that does not and cannot involve me.
My breath caught in my throat, and I sunk onto my bed.
I know that you were accepted at Stanford.
How did he know that?
I know that you're dream is to be a doctor,
No it wasn't, that was my mother's dream. She wanted me to be a doctor, and though I enjoyed helping people, that wasn't my dream.
your mother told me.
When did he talk to my mother?
She also told me that you weren't going to take the offer, because of me. I can't let that happen Clarke. You are by far the most amazing person I ever met, and I can't be the reason for you not to to achieve your dreams. I would do anything for you, I would do anything to keep you safe. I would do anything to be at your side forever, to wake up to you every morning, to see our future children run around with curly blonde hair, to hear you say you love me, but
Tears welled up in my eyes.
I can't do that to you. I would only drag you down, I would only get you hurt.
No Bellamy, you wouldn't, I thought as the tears threatened to come spilling out. Why would he think he would hurt me or even drag me down? I didn't even want to go to Stanford.
When you were kidnapped by Anaya, and I saw you tied up, I instantly hated myself fo putting you in that position. I let you down.
You didn't put me in that position Bellamy, I wished that he could hear me. I wished he was here with me.
Anaya asked me to choose between your life and mine. That wasn't even a choice for me Clarke. I chose your life without a second thought, and I'd do it again no matter what.
I felt a lump form in my throat.
But, I'm afraid that if we were ever in that situation again, you'd choose my life instead of your own.
I would, I would choose his life instead of my own, because I loved him.
I will not take that chance Clarke, I can't. You're too important to me. I've already hurt you so much, even if I was forced to, and even if it was unintentionally. All I have done is hurt you.
No, no he hadn't just hurt me. Tears spilled down my face. He had cared for me, he had made me laugh until my sides hurt, he had made me feel invincible, and most of all he had loved me.
I have no excuses for the way that I am.
I cannot hurt you anymore Clarke, I cannot be dragging you down anymore. Princess,
One of my tears dripped onto the paper, smearing the midnight blue ink.
I love you too much to keep hurting you, to endanger you, to keep dragging you down. That's not fair to you. You deserve the best, and that's not me.
Bellamy, you are the best. Y-you're the best for me. I sniffed, pursing my lips.
Please, please do not think I'm simply giving up on you, on us. I'm not doing that, I would never do that. I am- though it kills me- giving you a chance to be with someone who is better than me.
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I let out a strangled noise. No one is better for me than Bellamy, not Camilo, not anyone.
Someone who won't hurt you, someone who is easy to love, someone who isn't a monster.
I began to sob. Bellamy you're not a monster, you never were.
I'm leaving Princess,
No, no, Bellamy no don't. Please Bellamy. I breathed in staggered breaths.
O is coming with me, the Kane's gave me custody of her. She want you to know you're her best friend, and that you always will be. You're like a sister to her Clarke.
My sobs were loud, my lip was quivering, and tears flooded out of me.
We're leaving tonight on a plane. I want you to know that you didn't do anything wrong, and this isn't a simple "it wasn't you, it was me." I don't want to leave you,
I don't want you to leave Bellamy.
but I know I need to let you go. Let you follow your dreams, let you live your life- though it wont be with me. When you're mother told me that I was the reason that you weren't going to Stanford, I knew I had a decision to make. I could let you go and follow your dreams, or keep you to myself. Clarke I am a selfish person, but I can't be selfish with you. I want to- oh how I want to be selfish. It's taking all my strength and all my love for you, not to throw this letter away and go to you, but I have to let you go. I want you to be free to move on, to be happy.
No one could make me happy if Bellamy wasn't with me.
I want you to forget about me Clarke, it's the only way you can be happy. Pretend I never existed. I'll be gone soon. I'll just be a memory.
By this time, sobs racked my body uncontrollably. I heard people coming in, but I didn't look and kept reading.
I love you enough to let you go. Goodbye Clarke I Iove you,
Bellamy Blake
I dropped the letter. Bellamy's gone, he's gone.
"Clarke?" It was Monty, he put a hand on my shoulder.
"Are you okay?" Jasper asked. Raven came into the room,"Hey guys.." she stopped mid-sentence, once she saw me."What's wrong?"
I didn't speak, the words I had just read kept running through my mind.
Goodbye Clarke, I squeezed my eyes shut and slid into a fetal position. He's gone, he's gone.
"Camilo!"
I continued to sob loudly, and I felt a light touch on the small of my back.
"Clarke what's wrong?" He asked softly. Goodbye Clarke I love you, I heard Bellamy's voice in my head.
"Bellamy," I was able to cry."He- he's gone." I met Camilo's eyes which were full of concern.
"What do you mean?" He asked.
I swallowed."The letter." He went and took the letter off the floor. He read it outload and I cried through it all.
Everyone was quiet, and I couldn't stop sobbing.
"Clarke get in the car." Camilo said.
I looked up at him."What?"
"You can still catch him," Camilo said."I'll take you to the airport." I looked around the room, they all seemed surprised."If you want to catch him we have to go now." In a split second I was up, and Camilo and I ran to the car. We got in and Camilo sped off to the airport, going over the speed limit. I kept hearing Bellamy's voice in my head. Pretend I never existed. We made it to the airport and ran to the airport customer service desk. I'll be gone soon.
"Belamy Blake and Octavia Blake, which flight are they on?" I asked hurriedly.
The customer service agent, looked up."I am sorry, I cannot give you that information."
I'll just be a memory.
Camilo spoke up."Please ma'am, their mother is in the hospital and we need to tell them."
The customer service agent looked back down, and typed something on her computer."Flight 231, the entrance is on the other side of the airport. If you want to catch them, you need to hurry up." We sprinted to the other side of the airport, and saw the entrance. I ran, but was stopped by an airport security guard.
"I'm sorry, but you can't go in there. The doors are closed," she explained. I love you enough to let you go.
"Please, I need to stop someone from leaving in that plane," I begged.
I love you.
The security guard shook her head. "I'm sorry, but the flight will be leaving in any second." No, no, that can't happen. Bellamy couldn't leave me.
I have to let you go.
"Please,"I begged. The security guard shook her head again.
"Clarke," Camilo said. I turned to him, and saw he was staring out of a large glass window, though it was more of a wall. I saw a plane take off the ground- Bellamy's plane. That was Bellamy's plane. I watched it fly off, as I stood frozen. Tear slipped down my face as Camilo pulled me into his arms, he was gone. Bellamy was gone. I wouldn't be able to see him ever again. I clutched Camilo's shirt tightly as I drenched it in tears. I couldn't stop him from leaving. He left, because he felt that he was dragging me down, he felt like he wasn't good enough for me, but he was. Bellamy was all I ever wanted, all I ever needed, and now he was gone. I continued to cry into Camilo's shirt.
I heard Bellamy's voice again. I want you to forget about me Clarke.
I sobbed harder. I love you Bellamy Blake.
Bellamy P.O.V
I sat in my seat on the plane, looking out the window. Tears stained my face. I wish I could be with Clarke, but I couldn't do that to her. I had to let her go. By loosing her, I was loosing everything, but she could be happy. I closed my eyes, I love you Clarke Griffin.
A/N Heyyy guys, what did you think? Um, so that's the end of Arke High. If you haven't already, and if you want to, check out my other Bellarke story. It's called Vampires Don't Exist. I hoped you liked the story :)