Worth It

(8) She Likes Me... Maybe?

(Song is called 6/10 By Dodie. Honestly, I feel like a 6 out of 10 more than I'd like to admit, which is why I love this song because it talks about your insecurities and we all have them, no matter who we are or where we stand in life because that's just human nature. This chapter talks a little bit about the girl's insecurities, especially Zara's. I hope you like the chapter; sorry it's so short. I'll try and work on another one soon! Please vote and comment. Your support means more than you would think). 

Shane

"Back so soon?" Zara asked, faking nonchalance. I love Zara as a person because for me, love is instant. I either instantly click with someone or I don't. I just know if someone is a good person. I don't know how I do, but when I make my judgement on a person I am rarely wrong about them, leading me to believe that maybe it's a gift or something.

So, like I said, I love Zara... but she really needs to get better on her acting skills. I mean, she's staring at her unpainted nails like they hold the secret to the universe or something.

"I know what you're thinking." I tell her as I take the pen and clipboard from her. She should have never been doing the sign ups for us anyway. That isn't her job. She isn't on the team yet.

Oh, Cameron. What am I going to do with you? I think to myself. I really wish I could stop thinking about him because the more I think about him, the more I think about what he's doing. What he wanted to do to me and what he is now doing to June.

Why didn't I just put my money where my mouth was and had sex with him?

Maybe because you're a virgin and you didn't want to lose it to someone you know wouldn't remember it a second after it was over? My subconscious suggests. Or maybe you've been too busy dreaming about a certain curly blonde haired roommate? My subconscious suggests again.

"Do you now?" Shane asked, a spark of a challenge in her eyes.

She sees me as a threat. I can see it in her defensive stance. This isn't the girl I left a few minutes ago. This girl is cold and detached. Actually, the more that I think about it, I realize that Zara is naturally cold and distant. But, right now, she is more so.

I've got to set her straight. She needs to know that I am not the enemy here. June is, but I don't know if I want to tell Zara about that because then she might not like June so much.

Why should I care though? June left me to be with Cameron. I shouldn't want to protect her and yet, my first instinct is to do exactly that. Messed up, right?

"Yeah." I finally answer Zara. "You think I went up there to seduce Cameron, but the truth is I went there to protect you." I tell her as I sign up a girl with pigtails.

"Protect me?" Zara is immediately taken aback. I guess I don't blame her. I mean, what I did. Well, let's just say, it didn't look like I was thinking with my heart there.

"Yes." I turn to her once I am done signing up the girl. "Look Zara, I would never do anything to hurt anybody intentionally. I'm not that kind of girl, so you have nothing to be worried about." I tell her, finally. "Plus, I don't even like Cameron like that. I just wanted to take him away from you because he was clearly angry at something and if I didn't go with him, he probably would have run his mouth more." I explain to her, hoping she understands.

I don't know if she does, though. She looks kind of skeptical. Not really saying anything yet. I'm not good in situations like these. I've never been someone people are jealous of, so this situation is kind of new to me if I'm being honest.

Zara

I take a breath, finally and smile at Shane. "I appreciate what you were trying to do, but you didn't have to do it. I don't even like Cameron." I tell her.

Now I feel kind of bad for cursing Shane out in my head. She was trying to do me a favor, and I immediately thought she was a bitch. What is wrong with me? Those kinds of thoughts rarely come to me.

"Sure you don't." Someone snickers. Jo.

I roll my eyes. I don't need to listen to her opinion because I don't care. Plain and simple. She can think what she wants and if she thinks I'd ever like an egotistical asshole who is nice one minute and then making fun of my birthmark that I've always been sensitive about, then that's her problem. Not mine.

"Whatever." I tell her as I start to walk off. I shouldn't even be here. How the hell did I get roped into signing up people for a dance team that I'm not even in or want to be in? "Think what you want." I yell over my shoulder, as I head to the dorms.

Jo

It's happening. Finally. I know it.

Cameron is going to fall in love with this mysterious new girl and fuck, if he needs it. Maybe she can whip him into shape and he won't be so annoying.

I doubt it, but at least if he falls for this girl, then he'll stop screwing girls anal style no less, and I won't have to keep dealing with the poor girls Cameron screws.

I doubt that too, but hey, a girl can hope and man, if this girl right here ain't hoping.