Why Can't I Hate You

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Mike~

I shot at the man leaving him in the store as I took all his money from the cash register. I wanted some candy and he wouldn't let me take it, so I shot him.

I don't really care to be honest. No one cares about me to this point not even my own mother. But that's ok, Because I don't need nobody love to keep me going. I didn't have it then and I damn sure don't need it now.

Plus, how would you feel if half your life you were raised by different people until your parents wanted you back. That's why I am the way I am now. I've never experienced love. To keep it real, I don't even know if I was telling the truth when I said I loved Vallyk because I have know idea what love feels like or how to do it so how could I say it going towards someoe else.

But I do know I feel alone going threw my depression state by my self. But no one understands me and they never will.
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I ran out the store to my car speeding off hearing siren's from a close disdence. Quickly I cranked the car and sped off.

Few hours later I was in a hotel room. I've been in out of hotels because I refuse to be near Vallyk when he's with anyone else besides me.

I say I don't care physically but mentally I do care, alot. But like I said, no one cares about how Mike feels or about how he desperately just wants to be loved.

But that's just my life and I can't change it.

Vallyk~

Derek talked my head off as I played on my phone ranting about some party he wanted to go to tonight. "So- Vallyk are you listening" be said stopping once he figured out I wasn't paying him any attention.

"Oh, Yeah" I said turning off my phone giving him my attention. "Mhm, but what do you think" He asked and I shrugged. "I mean I don't care, just don't be mad when I'm high and say I didn't warn you"  I said shrugging.

" If I catch you with anything lord so help me Vallyk I will drag you" he said and I loughed. "Drag me Derek, drag me" I said loughing hard as hell while he rolled his Eye's. "But when is this party your talking about" I asked and he smirked.

"It's tommorow at 1, in the morning" he said and I looked at him with wide eyes. "Derek I have school" I said and he looked at me like I was dumb. "Baby it's Friday" he said and shook his head. " I think them drugs getting to ya head" He said Patting my shoulder.

"Oh shut up NBA Derek" I said and he gasp. "I don't have herpies" he said and I loughed. "Niether does he but sometimes you be acting like you him scream 4kt and throwing up rent money like it's your pay check" I said then loughed at me own joke.

He rolled his Eye's in annoyance making me laugh harder. "Good bye Vallyk Pena" he said and I smacked my lips. "Don't be saying my government, you don't know if 12 watching us" I said Looking around.

"Only person watching you is Bobby creepy as standing at the door" he said and sure enough Bobby was standing there. "BABY!" I scream with Joy hearing a chuckle. "Shut up Derek" I said. "Wasn't Derek nigga" I looked at the door seeing Mike.

"Oh, it's you" I said rolling my eyes. "Don't be like that Val. I was just coming to get some more clothes not that it matters to you" he said before walking off. I rolled my eyes and looked away from the door.

"You ok bubba" Bobby asked looking at me. "I'm fine Bobby, just been thinking about a few things" I said and he nodded.

For the rest of the night we just cuddled, loughed shared a few kisses and went to sleep.

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Hello my children 👁️👄👁️

Also for now on y'all stuck in my basement, here's a cookie 🍪. Better eat it slowly 😌

Dagger dick out 💅🏾

Hmm, will the party go as planned or will something or someone fuck it up?

But we'll have to find out in the next chapter...

Tbc...