TVD Preferences & Imagines

preference 111 » he finds out you self-harm [jeremy and elijah]

// trigger warning!

JEREMY: You had always hated your thighs, so when you once discovered cutting them you continued with it. It was a feeling you could not explain, but in a way, you felt like you deserved it.

"C'mon, baby, it's been so long", Jeremy moaned while kissing your neck, and if only you had remembered the fresh cuts on your thighs — which you somehow always managed to hide from him — you would have said no, but caught in the heat of the moment, you responded to his kiss just as fiercely and he took it as a sign to keep going.

But as soon as he started to tug on your jeans and you felt the uncomfortable friction, you were pulling away. "Wait, Jer—", you began, but then his warm hands were already gripping your thighs, only for his soft fingers to come in contact with the red marks and his lips to stop moving once he realized what he was looking at. The silence was unbearable and you wanted to be swallowed by the ground, but understanding as always, Jeremy didn't hesitate to cover you with the blanket on the couch so he wouldn't make you feel any more ashamed.

And with a snap of fingers, he was sitting there with the most serious, yet caring gaze in his eyes, all sexual frustration out of the window and just pure affection in the air. And with a soft voice, he spoke up, while his hand slowly took yours. "Do you want to talk about it?"

ELIJAH: You were oddly attracted to the feeling you got from cutting yourself. You didn't want to do it, but it was an addiction you couldn't control. Maybe it was the past of being bullied, or the darkness that followed afterwards, but you were dragged down by your thoughts nonetheless. You wanted to tell Elijah and get his support, but you were afraid of his reaction, so you tried to let it out carefully.

"Um, E—Elijah. I need to tell you something", you started quietly on one day, and as he turned to you, you slowly revealed your wrists. Elijah's eyes widened and he quickly put the book he was reading down, and rushed to you, pulling you into a tight hug and kissing your face multiple times.

"Oh, Y/N. If you wish to talk about it, I'm all ears. And I won't leave your side, ever", he whispered reassuringly, and held your face gently while leaving kisses all over it.

And you did that — talked about it. It felt so good to let it all out and get his help and support. He showed you more love and affection than before, because he was so scared that neglecting you would make you start again, and although his kisses and hugs weren't the thing that pulled you through — no, it was your own strength — it certainly didn't do any harm to have him by your side through thick and thin.