I'll Fix Everything | Wangxian

Chapter three

Wei Ying's words had shattered their hearts into tiny pieces. Powerlessly, they watched as he clutched Wen Qing's hands to his chest, curling around them like a kitten to its mother as if he'd done so many times before.

Wen Qing sniffed, tears rising in her eyes as her heart softened and suddenly, Wei Ying looked a lot like Wen Ning, the sight now breaking her heart.

Playing into Wei Ying's clear affection for her, she lovingly caressed what she could of his chin and chest like she would for A-Ning and sighed, "Why?" She asked, voice soft and loving.

Wei Ying wept softly, knowing she was acting - for the most part at least, but let himself feel comfort nonetheless, "I deserve to die..." He muttered, eyes fluttering tiredly even when he heard loud gasps.

Jiang Cheng hit him lightly, "Wei Wuxian!" He wailed, sobbing pathetically, "No you don't! But I will break your legs if you don't explain!"

Wei Ying internally smiled a little, fuck I missed him...

He sighed, breath strained, "If I continue to breathe... I'll destroy all of your lives..." He whimpered, hiccuping as his tears became heavy again, fleeing his red, bothered eyes.

Yanli cried so hard her breath squeaked and she couldn't stay still as she threw herself on Wei Ying, hugging him as tight as she could, "A-Xian!!" She cried, breaking his heart since he was causing her pain once again, "You could never hurt me! I love you A-Xian!"

Wei Ying covered his mouth, still holding Wen Qing's hands tight to muffle his own screams and cries, But I did hurt you! I got your parents killed! I caused the fall of Lotus Pier- I left you I killed your husband and then I killed you leaving your son parentless! I caused you so much hurt Shije!!!

At the recollection of his greatest mistakes, Wei Ying screamed loudly, like he did three days prior when Wen Qing and Wen Ning left; before throwing his sister aside and reaching for Suibian with the intention to try again.

Lan Zhan gasped, acting fast once again he kicked the sword astray and pinned Wei Ying down, almost weeping when the boy thrashed beneath him, wailing in agony.

For a moment, everyone was frozen, watching Wei Ying act so different, watching him struggle madly beneath Lan Wangji, screaming painfully, but a moment was all it took.

Technically, Wei Ying was older than most in the room now, he had more experience, knowledge, strength, and abilities.

It happened in slow motion, under command, Subian left his sheath and charged toward Wei Ying, toward his throat to pierce through him, the act would be fatal, killing him in a second... and then Lan Wangji noticed and moved, switching positions, Wei Ying gasped.

"NO!" He screamed, stopping the sword a millisecond before it killed Lan Zhan, letting it fall to the ground with a clang.

Wei Ying let out a breath, shocked out of his wailing state his hands gripped his head, "Fuck... fucking hell..." He muttered breathily, panting as he straddled Lan Zhan.

Lan Zhan gulped, sitting up shakily. He had acted without thinking, something not unusual, he didn't have to think to be heroic but he didn't act with his head.

He acted with his heart.

His heart, which had been numb and motionless for years now - figuratively - beat in his chest as he looked at Wei Ying.

Wei Ying sobbed, looking up with utter heartbreak in his eyes, once again Lan Zhan had sacrificed himself for Wei Ying. In the past... or future... the other boy had given up his good reputation, his life, his freedom, his safety, and time for Wei Ying who considered himself undeserving.

Wei Ying's heart was broken further, I almost killed Lan Zhan- Lan Wangji I almost killed my Lan Zhan- my heart I almost killed my heart I almost fucking killed him!!!! He thought with a jumbled mind, body erupting in flames and before he could stop himself, his palm swung down and he slapped Lan Zhan with his depleted strength, weakened by heartbreak.

Their audience gasped, covering their tear-stained cheeks and mouths with their hands as Wei Ying screamed in despair, "You fool!!" He cried, sobbing loudly, "Lan Wangji you fucking idiot you almost died!"

Lan Zhan let go of his cheek and sighed, "As did you." He muttered, hands at Wei Ying's waist, feeling the tremors, shakes, tension.

Wei Ying shook his head, realising he would be unable to push his family away, Jiang Cheng, maybe, Madam Yu', definitely, but Jiang Yanli and Lan Zhan were unmovable.

Head falling, he sobbed onto Lan Zhan's shoulder, "Please..." He whispered, clutching Lan Zhan's flowy sleeves, "Please let me push you away... please I'm trying to save you- you have to go..."

Lan Zhan sighed through his nose, "I won't leave you." He promised, gasping softly when Wei Ying finally broke.

Wei Ying slumped into his arms, sobbing into his chest, "Help me..." He whimpered, breath hitching, "Help me..."

The plea broke their hearts as once again, without thinking, Lan Zhan's heart guided him to hug Wei Ying tightly, "I'll help you." He promised for a second time, "I'll help you..."

Wei Ying hiccuped, letting Lan Zhan lay him down and hug him protectively to his chest, fingers strumming down Wei Ying's back as if it was a Guqin.

Wei Ying melted into Lan Zhan's embrace, calming down smoothly, he didn't notice when Wen Qing left, or when Jiang Yanli vanished to cook soup, or when Jiang Cheng accepted a hug from Jiang Fengman, an unusual sight.

Falling asleep, Wei Ying allowed himself to be protected, cared for, and loved, hoping and praying he wouldn't regret it later.